Took Dad to the doctor's today. It was a big thing. Mom was there and my brother and his wife. Surgery has been tentatively scheduled for 9/5. A tumor grew back in the same cavity and there is evidence of a smaller one in another, which threatens his speech and memory and is inoperable. I mentioned to the Dr that we have him on Soursop tea and alkaline diet. He said it may not change anything since the cancer is already there, but he won't object. Dad wants coffee, candy, and protein shakes which are loaded with sugar. Seems we're fighting an uphill battle but whatever Dad decides is going to be supported. I will still make and offer tea. I also reached out to Envita Medical in AZ. They said insurers don't pay for their work as you basically have an immune transplant with their treatment. Very interesting researxh, but also very expensive. Even if he wanted to go that route, we'd all sell our assets and then be homeless. Being that the star GBM patient of their's passed away 2 years after the video was shot, Mom's intuition says no.
Fuck it. We'll be making more memories and enjoying life while he's still here. He talked about having a six pack of beer. Also, he also said something hilarious today but I cannot put it together. It was off the wall - literally a quote from a bathroom stall. If I get it later, I'll add it as another note to this note.
Mom .... that's a whole other story for another day. She's not doing well with this or with taking care of herself.
Me? I carry this burden and help as much as I can, but it's not enough. I'm there every weekend. Her and I are literally a candle burning at both ends. Dad's humor will see us through.
Tomorrow I go back to work and pretend this doesn't affect me. 🤷🏻♂️
Sorry to be a Debbie Downer. Cancer sucks. Fuck you cancer. Fuck you.
#humuhumunukunukuāpuaʻa
