Once I had a clear and sober mind I was able to start addressing various shortcomings that I'd locked away most of my life. High up on that list was a fear of change, fear of self improvement and the need to take on full acceptance of personal responsibility. I'd spent many years in a mindset centered around identity politics and emotion based decision making.
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All the power in the world to you for recognizing this. It’s so easy to play the identity political game all the while disregarding our capacity for change in our own life. People want to fix the world without fixing themselves. A very painful (and also empowering) realization