Thanks, you actually happened to reach out while I'm having a real tough time with it so I I appreciate it. I keep telling myself it'll get better with time, but I'm so drained in waiting and to be honest it just feels so hopeless and desperate right now. I try to keep myself occupied and to work on myself but moments like these it's hard to want to do anything, I just wish I could sleep this off like a sickness but I know that will only hold me back. It's been a rough night.