Guy:

"You sure about wanting to hang out .. ?

WHAT IF I haven’t showered in 199 Days ? ..

still want to hang out ? ..

WHAT IF My toe & finger nails haven’t been cut in 1 Year, 7 Months, 3 weeks, 5 days, 22 Hours, 17 Minutes & 17 Second? ..

Still want to hangout ? ..

WHAT IF I got hair, down, to my knees ? ..

WHAT IF I have no shoe shine ? ..

WHAT IF I Know you & you know me? ..

WHAT IF A few of you are in the area waiting, watching just to see if I come out of my box ? …

Oh Man Oh Man, I don’t know—This toe jam build up may do a number on your psyche 🫣😵‍💫 .."

My thoughts:

Spoken like a true trauma victim.

Some people think it's toxic to show your worst.

Some people understand.

Do people just want to hang around you because of x, y, or z? Or do they genuinely value your company? Does the superficial actually matter?

I feel like women have more of a problem with this, but apparently both sexes have issues.

If I can be 100% cringe, at my worst, totally off my game... will there be anyone left?

I've been hurt so much that I'd rather keep people away.... the people that don't run away are either unhinged af, or they really care.

Depending on the situation and how you view it, there may be no upside.

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Feeling bad and wanting to say something is one thing, doing it won't be helpful....

People reach a certain point and there's no coming back from it.

It's like a crazy dog. People pet it and he enjoys the good attention... but he also has a meltdown from the bad attention. He can't really learn new tricks at this point.... but you don't want to just throw him out into the cold either.