How did I find out?

My friends at the Bitcoin conferences have been telling me about the rumors spread about me within the Nostr community, and how they deem me as suspect. I'm on many blocklists. I barely made it to Nostrica, for my reaction & criticism of devs & the protocol at the first incidence of death threats during beta-testing when I went basically a-wall & batsh8t crazy on the devs (as I should) that death threats even be considered as freedom of speech.

Then there are other things of which I don't know the details of, but a lot of the coordinators of Nostrasia have ghosted me, I haven't received any communication on the event in return to my messages or questions about it (which is unusual), in conjunction with the rumors spreading from - that I am a psyop, someone with intentions "against Nostr," mostly ppl saying I'm a psyop, a racist bc of an argument I got into, so many other untrue things I've never experienced in my entire life on existing on the internet.