I highly your thought-provoking content.
What I heard:
1. We need to examine our motives, especially in the initial mystifying phase.
2. We are prone toward self-deception.
3. Our initial justification and explanation of a desire may self-deceiving.
My observation: Introspection can be a great place to start. If it leads me to the truth that the creature is part of creation and cannot lift itself out of its self-deception.
However, it often keeps the gaze of oneself bent towards itself. This ends up leading to practicing the “presence of self.”
It is only in looking up, that I find deliverance from self-deception. In losing my life in Yeshua, I find the only life worth living, the Life.
This is just my experience.