All I can say from here is:
Circumstances don't matter.
Only your state of being matters.
(Circumstances don't create matter.
Only your state of being does)
Sit
Close your eyes.
Know nothing.
See the reality you prefer.
Know that you are shifting towards it a billion times a second.
Feel the emotions in your heart, spread. It's love.
It's even better than you imagined.
And know less.
You don't really know how to solve this because you were not designed to.
What do you know how people get a house? There are threrty trillion ways and you cannot know.
Just follow your state of being.
Peace and already there.
Trust because you are always trusting (choose to trust what you prefer instead what you don't)
It's black or white.
Ones and zeros.
On or off
Trust or not, you trust or you trust to not trust. You are that powerful .
Always 100% powerful and can't be less.
Always thank in advance.
Always be grateful.
Always be in grace.
And things will be gratis for you.
Love from Patagonia