I also isolated myself from the outside world too, was constantly looking for people’s weaknesses outside of work hours, and had the most shallow personal relationships during my player career. Ultimately I didn’t like myself at all looking back.
One of my biggest epiphanies was playing against my poker “heroes” like Phil Ivey, Garrett Adelstein, and Daniel Negreanu. With all due respect to them, I realized I didn’t want to become like any of them and with the road I was on, I was likely going to.
It’s been a couple year journey to unwind these toxic patterns that poker played a big role in me developing, but I’m personally much better off now not playing.
Self-love is the answer and once you have this, poker becomes completely uninteresting as you’ll start to be interested in businesses that help people live better lives. I find that if you can look in the mirror and honestly say you love and respect yourself, then you are doing well.
I wouldn’t change anything just like you, and it’s a part of my story. I learned these lessons at the perfect time in my life.
Thanks for sharing your story and I’m glad you find this poker mentality works for you in your life. I found it didn’t work for me at all and I didn’t like the person I was becoming.