Recovering this week. Felt like I torn something on my right knee. Hurts like hell. Was training for a competition next month... heavy squats... Looks like that idea is off. Hoping I can get back next week...

Taking a break from the newsletter (livingonbitcoin.substack.com). Challenged myself to write daily. Started losing subscribers. Suggested to stop. When I started, it was an outlet. A place to dump my thoughts. I exhausted people. Took time off to travel (and work).

Work's been disatisfying. Hollywood is soul sucking. I work as a producer and director in animation. Started off as an animator, rose the ranks over a 24 year career. The politics behind it all... "art" as a commodity... terrible business. Watched the entire industry change to a shell of itself over the last 2 decades. Easy money makes loose morals. The things people would do to get a project made... Bitcoin added some clarity into why the entertainment industry is such shitshow. The more I delved into studying economics, the more I got into the Bitcoin ethos, and like a caged tiger at that the circus, I wanted out.

I felt like I made the right decision of taking my pay in Bitcoin. But at the same time, knowing that I was still working in this field, dealing with the psychopaths that run the network... While the fiat bump every now and then helped, it doesn't last.

Lifting also played a big part in keeping sanity in check. If you can handle the heavy weight under the bar, everything else felt easy.

Now with both outlets temporarily on ice, realizing how imbalanced my thoughts are.

At times, I want to take the blue pill. Forget it all. Put on the custome and go back to the show. Never gonna happen now.

Bending the knee hurts. Standing up brings a lot of pain.

Looking for something new to do in the mean time.