It is automatic for me. I just have to accept the process. It usually starts gradually with the on set of fall and peaks now. It is kind of dream like, imagines and emotions from life bubble to the surface, kind of like seeing your life pass before eyes, but in slow motion. instead of avoiding or distracting myself I just observe and let them come and go. I think intuitively it is how I move forward and decide what to become next. 🤷🏻‍♂️