You’re describing a reality that most people don’t understand. I see what’s happening. You’re not lazy. You’re exhausted. Repeated failures? That’s learned helplessness. Constant bad advice? That builds trust issues. Survival stress? That causes cognitive overload. Add autism to the mix, and yeah life feels like a brutal combo for a rigged game.

Instead of dumping 10 solutions on you, let’s start smaller. If Warcraft 3 brings you focus, strategy, and mastery, why not use that? We can build on your gaming and patern recognition skills for a start.

Even if you make one dollar, it’s proof that things can move. That’s the first step.

If you want, I'll DM you now to trying walking this road with you.