No, fortunately you. Alcohol is shit, it only helps us lie to ourselves in the moments we should be honest.

If your friends don't respect your choice, they aren't your friends, at least not now, in this moment.

There's a huge difference between being clean and sobriety. Plenty of people get clean, far less become sober - but for those that do, life can now be lived and loved clearly and honestly.

You sre the fortunate one.