I won’t ask a bunch a personal questions.
But to address your last sentence, most US adults are barraged with chronic illness, low wages, debt, and endless psy-ops that infect their employers, local govts, and schools.
That is the perfect storm for many sheep to devolve into weak and dependent subjects. Ready to drink the koolaid eagerly.
I agree, it’s hard to watch so many people signup for obviously worse outcomes.