how did you feel when you woke up? it seems to me that you are being able to embrace your own "mistakes" (or the way society asks you to do things made differently). maybe a part of you that you expected to be judgemental (were you expecting this from the queen?) is loving and caring and being helpful. and eating maybe means something you lived and now you are elaborating.

did you just lived something and it seems different from what was socially expected, but somehow you could embrace yourself and saw a way to make it acceptable elsewhere?

hahaha maybe it's not the way. I would prefer to ask you other questions, but I'll send you this.