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Plebs please excuse my sensitivity. Last weeks have been tough on the body and the mind. Isolation and solitude have been soul crushing… on my birthday, at social events, on my short stay at the hospital. I seem unable to foster and maintain connections with other humans. Has it always been like this? Maybe.

Every time I discover a new space, a new group, I get my hopes up but I m likely carrying the source of my problem with me. I am a watcher, or just annoying.

I can blame it on adhd, dyslexia, Asperger, abuse related cPTSD, intentional alienation caused by toxic fucks… I could. But I have internalized it all. I am simply unfit. This is all my fault and I am not finding the ways to fix it, attempts results so often in failures that attempting is becoming more and more scary, life becomes smaller and smaller each year and I am not allowed to die. nostr:note18r8cmc7k79grdjkav4s44gv6c5exuk8kqs50xqzv798ge5a637gsmhy3cw
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SovereigntyQuest 2y ago

No harm done bro. Often it feels kinda disheartening when notes seem not to get engagement. Many clients don't pick up all notes, notes fly by fast and are almost immediately in the past. Hope you find some chill and continue to interact with nostr.

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Account deleted 2y ago

Not the point of what I have wrote. Note got “engagement”, zaps and reposts. Note was seen. It simply seems that zaps > GMs

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SovereigntyQuest 2y ago

Well, if it's any consolation I spent an hour yesterday making a Gm art piece which I posted this morning and got zero likes, zaps or replies. ;) I never let my mind go to places and put it in my heart. It's all good and all of us here on nostr are contributing and just by interacting are building this community. Keep posting notes :)