Yep, I feel something similar. Not sure what the answer is.

Maybe #asknostr will have some answers. I listened to an interview with nostr:npub1ndketdm2qyv35nrhsxzks8kh7w7w6tll4rjp29hv0qjqkgfjsh6snmgk2v maybe he can help nostr:note1wflspq6h68t4jtyn2yd9arllxwfqedp2lw3es440lada7q82uwfsz6jmgy