Oh no. So sorry. It feels like losing a close family member or friend. People will claim it gets easier with time, but I find that it gets harder. The more time passes from when they are lost, the more their physical and emotional loss is felt. What helps me is remembering the good times and laughs, praying for them and talking about them, and doing charitable works in their name. Sending you strength and patience from where I am. 🙌🏻