I guess I don’t like posting on social media anymore (WeChat/ ins) is because since I’ve known who’s watching so every time I post, I have an incline to maintain some specific profile, eg how I look on others’ eyes, would it be appropriate to say this or that, am I looking good on this. I care more about *how I look* instead of *who I really am*. And eventually, I found myself totally *not really me* when I make those posts.

Maybe when I interact with others, I inherently have the intention to hide my dark side. And social media postings really worsen the situation, it gives me a really easy way to construct what I want others to view me as.

I’m glad to realize that. I guess that’s why I always feel the most relaxing when I’m alone. Be authentic, be true to yourself. No matter you are alone, you are with others, you are online, you are in reality. You are a real person, you have kindness, you can be adorable, but you can also have bad temper, have your kinky thoughts. Just be real.