Riddled with self hate - so I am not a good example.

When I tried going to a Goenka retreat, I was rejected due to my emotional fragility.

Few years later on my first retreat, a sunday-to-friday almost-a-week retreat, I suffered quite a bit. Being alone with no distractions to numb me down, all those internal demons surfaced from the subconscious………

I was lucky to have a very small student/teacher ratio (2/1) and that I already knew the teacher and he knew me.

I want to go again when I find the opportunity and the strength. Meanwhile I practice daily at home.