What's the price of discipline and what do I get out of it? Acting independent of feelings. Pursuing a goal and not quitting. It's a powerful strenght. But it comes at a price. I have to believe in the goal so much, that it makes up for all the pain. I don't have many goals in life and when shit hits the fan I find out if my discipline is strong enough to support that goal. Does discipline kill enjoyment? I think it's more about pain tolerance. Many goals don't take that much time. But there are also various kinds of fasting. No hot shower, no junk food, no porn. It feels like it takes less strenght to do something then not doing something. There's a blurry line to compulsive behavior and I don't know much about psychology. Behaviors are results of the processes in my brain and these processes make up who I am. Changing myself is hard. It's easier with outside help, but still, what changes are worth it? Behavior is also a result of the environment I'm in. Changing my environment is often easier. Feels like that's my takeway from this train of thoughts. Thanks for sharing the ride.