Hey Nostr! Just wanted to leave my daily "pain" here. Maybe it will help.

https://video.nostr.build/5921e3b43b968af56c98ee5bb3b62efb013300dc71fa8b6648a6156a947662b4.mp4

Lately I came across photos of the originals

I sold, and I felt a deep sence of loss😶

Like a big, dark wave, it swallowed me.

The realization that I haven’t created anything new for almost three months – and that I don’t have the strength to — makes me feel miserable and angry at myself.

The need for money and a new visa (which are connected) is just killing my artistic spark. It's sad.

For now, I'm trying to find a stable job and hoping that I'll reconnect with my art.