you'll never find the source of information until you ask "who's influencing the influencers?"
today I'm going to take you on a stroll thru my past life.
for context, I was always my mother's wildest child. though I grew up going to church almost five times a week, I was eternally wrecked by my love of music. it all started when I learned how to play the piano at the age of six and started singing in the children's choir. my first experience in stardom was making the Sicilian pastor's wife SOB and all the other kids SUPER JEALOUS. I learned very early on that being so good at something would put a target on my back and I did not gaf.
subsequently, I was a huge loner. on top of that, I was homeschooled so I had way too much time on my hands to learn whatever I wanted. my dad bought a computer when I was nine and I quickly learned how to install floppies and navigate MS-DOS so I could play computer games and help my mom design church pamphlets in digital art programs. when the internet came along, I spent a lot of time figuring out the world wide web and started dreaming of fantastical things.
however, music is more fun to me and always was so I did not do coding. I just figured that someday I could just hire code monkeys to do system building because I wanted to design my own operating system as I hated the windows and apple OS's. plus, my brother was into all that so I figured he could be that code monkey someday. I started learning more instruments and started writing my first acoustic guitar album at the age of 20 while I was in college.
at 21, I was like, idk, maybe somebody should build a transparent digital accounting system for churches since these megachurches are asking for money all the time and nobody knows where it goes. then I got low key obsessed with the dark world of the occult, but found it to be a front for degenerate bullshit. by then I'd written like a hundred songs and one of my acoustic Led Zeppelin covers got a lot of view on YouTube. some weirdos from the freemason's club were into it. I also began learning audio engineering and started producing demos.
a lot of drama was going on in my personal life, and around 24, I was "introduced" to the conspiracy journals and started reading about things concerning international banking mafias that rocked my little world. shit got straight WEIRD almost immediately. idk how to tell this part in its full weirdness but I somehow knew about the PRISM program before Snowden blew the whistle on it and this scared me shitless. really, it was because I figured out that Facebook was keylogging and all my metadata was being used for social profiling. I never trusted my iPhone after that and left a one word note in my notes app that just said "PRISM".
despite my fears and paranoia, I began digging deep into the internet to find out more and stumbled upon a lot of internet forums talking about how the internet was being used for sexual exploitation. so I went on a long journey away from my hometown and eventually ended up in Thailand, where I began independently investigating the link between social media and human trafficking. a couple years later, when I returned to the US, I was a hot mess and couldn't tell anyone about my findings or experiences.
I spent almost five years in a relationship trying to just be normal and began finishing the production of indie pop songs that I'd started composing while in Thailand. sadly, the better I got at all things music related, the worse our relationship got. it reminded me of how the little kids at my church hated me for being "special" except now it was my boyfriend.
at the time, I had no idea that anyone even listened to my music until shit once again started getting straight WEIRD. it honestly felt like I was being hunted by Satan from the shadows. I had no choice but to expose my other hobby of reading the forbidden conspiracy journals and I went on twitter to do that. everything went berserk when I said "fuck it" and started blasting Mark Zuckerberg on Instagram for being a sex trafficker, the allegations being that he was allowing sex trafficking to occur on Instagram.
in the middle of this shit storm, many politicians, media, celebrities, and influencers became aware that I was about to pull some black swan shit, but they interpreted this as my being a terrorist and not a citizen journalist because they're literally retarded and corrupt. I was offered all sorts of things to STFU but I would not, even a seat in Congress if I wanted to join the Democrat Party. frankly, they are all high key Satanic to me and now we all clearly see it.
but there have been many strange and almost deadly games played since then and some figures who have also had to thug it out because of this. in the past five years, the political climate has drastically shifted and, imo, that's just what happens when you make it a life's mission to expose people to the truth. it's very controversial in that the untold stories of history aren't exactly welcomed by those who wish for them to remain a mystery. we all know who those people are and what they control and WHO they control, but at least the public now knows and that's important.
that said, I still hate politics. I find it to be the one area where everything good goes to die and everyone who gets involved in it is ultimately compromised by money. be that as it may, this isn't the first time anyone's been censored and worse by these people. it's just par-for-the-course with them. Nostr is like a lifeline in this sense, because even the owner of the other platform is guilty of his own misdeeds in this entire situation. to say that that man helped wreck my musical career is an understatement, though I think his preferred framing is as a hero.
actually, the heroes were the few good men and women within the intelligence community who put a moratorium on all of it for the sake of my not getting murdered. but as bureaucracy goes, the end goal is always the survival of the beast. lots of politicians both left and right hate my literal guts, but so do a lot of rich celebrities and influencers who would literally just DIE if I ever popped out again. I constantly have to remind myself that it all did happen and it all happened the way it was supposed to happen. I could not have made their downfall any easier.
obviously, I have gained nothing but drama from all of this. almost the entire world has awakened from their stupor and it is what it is. once you've had every accusation in the book thrown at you and it's all been debunked, the last thing these people can do is hope I unalive myself. sorry, but that's not gonna happen because I still have more music to produce. nothing and no one is worth losing that opportunity over, and I do mean literally nothing and no one.
many people have goals higher than money, power, and fame, and I am one such human being. but there is power in words and power in music. these are my chosen weapons and apparently I use them quite well, regardless of how the social media platform overlords feel about it.
anyways, all of this is to say that no matter who tries to stop you, you can make a difference in the world just by not giving a fuck about what the powers that be think. they suck and they're all pretty much just greedy, low IQ grifters in the end. success is a vibe and the rest is just theatre.
haters will say things like, "you can just do things," but this is just them conceding that they wish they weren't such haters. actually, like the band America once said, "YOU CAN DO MAGIC."
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my mom bought me this outfit when I was a kid with a T-shirt that said "I am me" and I can't help but wonder if that was just a foreshadowing to my becoming meme.
I've tried numerous ways to get around this. there's just no way to get back to my ideal FYP. I want a reset button or the ability to opt out of the elongorithm altogether. it's becoming impossible to find content that deals with anti-gravity propulsion and the alternate sciences. this is "you are the product" on steroids and I hate it.
the other thing I don't like about the Twitter algorithm is that if you mute certain words like 'tesla' and 'elon' it just pushes that content harder. kinda like, "WHAT, YOU DON'T WANT TO BE IN THE X CORP CULT???" um, no, I just want to see content that makes me happy.
so I made the executive decision to nuke my Twitter account because it was all just politics and x corp stuff, plus all my followers were porn bots and elon bots plus some random men. then I got a fresh one and the algorithm was perfectly balanced. I liked it that way. but as soon as I started interacting with a few of the accounts I normally do, things went askew. I made the mistake of following the owner and now my feed is just back to politics and x corp stuff. it made me think about the nature of algorithms and how retarded they are.
first of all, we should have the ability to reset the algorithm. the default should always be how it is on a fresh account where there are no identity inferences – science, art, vibey things. secondly, I want the ability to save the algorithm when it becomes optimal to my current liking. if I want to see more sports and Tom Brady content because I've been interacting with more sports and less political content, I should be able to save it the FYP algorithm in the same way that I bookmark a post.
I don't like the notion of twitter communities and groups or whatever, because the FYP is supposed to be the perfect mix of content I like.
anyways, I think it's clearly a problem with the overpowering nature of a few accounts, where the algorithm just goes full blown retarded and sucks you back into the mainstream algorithm pipeline and there's just no way of getting back to normal. I even tried to make an alt and that didn't work because the algo knew it was me.
perhaps, this is also an issue with identity inferences in that the algorithm just assumes you want to be inundated with this type of content and locks you into an experience you only wanted for like five seconds because it's otherwise too overbearing. maybe this is why the lack of algorithm choice is an intentional mode of propagandization and it lends itself well toward the stagnancy of intellectual progress. very effective!
but I like algorithm choice because most of the time I do just want to see science, art, and vibey content. I just hate the feeling of *ugh, not this shit again* all day every day.
I'm having an extremely difficult time caring about politics rn because 1) I said all this shit years ago, as have many, and it's moreso that I'm mentally exhausted by mass retardation in opposition to these efforts, and 2) I can't get over the fact that Steven Greer (the UFO guy) said that we are actually 70+ years behind in spacecraft engineering because a secret rogue government organization has been building reverse engineered alien spacecraft for decades now.
basically, I'm right about everything and especially the part about the suppression of science due to some unsavory origins in "Nazi engineering". allegedly, Hitler was already running one such spacecraft program which he intended to use as a means of procuring global consent for world domination. the US did, in fact, take many scientists in Operation Paperclip for this and many other projects which would eventually "go dark" to conceal their extended research in various domains.
as a result, science became very bland and neutered by the lack of tangible research and data which would verify theories on concepts such as anti-gravity and electromagnetic propulsion, quantum physics and entanglement, and "alien" intelligence.
sounds crazy, but if aliens are, indeed, real, then it should be possible to establish some type of communications with them in order to advance ourselves. I think the alien conspiracists all agree that this should be done respectfully, since they are allegedly like 300+ IQ points more intelligent than us and we might go batshit insane or be crucified for our findings.
I also don't know how to communicate this to the powers that be because we have already assumed that rocket engineering is as advanced as it gets, but this is simply not true. if a secret government organization is already building "alien" spacecraft then they're not going to use it for anything other than world domination, just like Hitler intended to do.
it's almost like AI becoming so advanced that we will soon not be able to tell the difference between a real and fake image. what are we gonna do if we can't tell the difference between a fake "alien" invasion and an actual alien encounter?
tbh, the only thing worse than not believing that aliens exist is thinking a bunch of highly advanced but fake alien spacecraft manned by humans, remotely or not, are the real deal.
yes, this was essentially the plot of the X-Files but these days I'm prone to believing that the government is always lying, and I think that they are STILL lying about the existence of ALIENS!
you're welcome and any time 😊
not that my opinion matters much but fwiw I was always disappointed in how one of my former favorite artists in the world seemed to initially despise me, but also felt like, if there ever was a friendship to be had, I'd have it with brain chip mommy. I admire her immensely and feel like she's a genuinely good person. it's actually my dream to become a good ice skater, so.
if I had a husband and he called me a piece of shit, without some seriously valid reasons to say so, I'd have divorce papers in his hands the next day. the end.
anyways, pretty much the irony of all this is that most of the fuckery started before I even said anything remotely offensive to anyone. the first time I got banned from Twitter, if I recall correctly, was by making a particularly spicy comment to the New York Post which they promptly took as an "anti-Semitic" statement, which is funny because I said nothing about Jews. they're the ones who colored it in by trying to engage the entire world in some falsely dichotomous argument about...themselves.
now that you can see my pfp, you can see why I get to much hate from women: I look like a pokemon baby Jew but I'm not white. frankly, I've never been disturbed by my racial mix but apparently lots of people are. it turns out that ashley st clair was one of those people, and now that she's gone to her people at the new york post to sensationalize her most basic lie about being a 26-year-old, one might also wonder what else she's lying about.
well, as I've said before, I knew about this whole thing for over a year now. I called the whole thing – she's an op, she's got a motive, and she's using conservatism to gain clout when she's not much of a Conservative at all. of course, this is coming from my perspective of having been BORN into a highly conservative family, though I did dabble a bit on the other side for intel and culture. I know a faker when I see one, and I was a little weirded out by how much she was copping off of ideas I've already written about then twisting them.
thing is, I already went through a lot of this shit with baby mama #2, though this isn't supposed to be talked about. her issues stemmed from having been outperformed on a one shot single that, had I been a radical lefty and amicable with the press, probably would have done better than her entire catalogue. I'm not trying to be an asshole but it's pretty much true. everyone thought my music was stupid and cringe not realizing that they themselves couldn't have engineered one such meme hit if their lives depended on it.
and truly, it was intended to be a romance meme track because it's both super retro and super trad in essence, but open to misinterpretation as all memes are. I wrote it mainly because I was sick of all the shit on the radio and I felt like all the romantic music women were writing was low key whiny bimbo music. it was unsurprising to me when ariana grande's record label started stalking my IG and then she sorta copped an entire concept off of that one song.
so the ashley thing is actually unsurprising, except that I am quite baffled about how my just doing me and being me would make someone get basically murderous. now, this is not to pinpoint the two known potential assassination attempts on my life in one person, but it is to say that the overlap of characters here have mainly one thing in common, and it's that they all hate me passionately for being against slaughtering children in Gaza.
what they don't realize is that any conservative who grew up in the 90s has never been as in denial about Israel as these fake conservatives are. most of the real ones are just strict patriots who don't give af about the mainstream media and Zionism, and most of this shift really took a turn post-9/11 when we were lied to about the Israeli intelligence op that helped Al Qaeda successfully nuke the twin towers. but even I knew back then that the Patriot Act was a violation of my rights. Bush was a dual-party smooth operator, and so much so, that even many Christians were radicalized into Zionism through this one-sided blame game.
but I found something closer to the truth than ever in my twenties and it helped me maintain a reasonably logical intellectual relationship with politics. this, however, is clearly not the case for a lot of these influencers online who only pick up on the surface issues when it's convenient. I have done a lot of posting on these topics with in-depth information to back up my claims. this information was RABIDLY denounced by the Zionist right, though it was largely accepted by moderate left. really no different than how Conservatives bashed Conservatives who were against the Iraq war.
ashley was allegedly the perfect mainstream media op in that she had "citizen journalist" appeal but had the entire Zionist media mind in her corner. they did, apparently, plot some pretty desperate and heinous attacks on me, my family, and my reputation. could care less if Elon acknowledges this because it's true.
now, I'm not a flagrant anti-Zionist in any regard, I just don't agree with foreign interference in the US government and this would go for any country. I also don't care that much about Jewish culture because I'm a Christian and we have our own culture. most of my work in the arena of free speech has been for the sake of keeping the dialogue well-researched and countering even Republican claims that my patriotism has something to do with zionism. it doesn't. there is nothing in our Constitution that says I have to support the state of Israel – especially after all of this shitty things they've done to us, like the USS Liberty thing, in order to be an American.
but this is a perfect attack vector because the Republican Party is currently fully occupied by Zionists. they literally will not allow people who don't care to shill for it an opportunity to participate. ok whatever.
frankly, I don't care what a rich dude like Elon Musk does, but it's all the lynch mob attacks that are seriously disturbing. writing has always been my escape from the odd silence of society on very controversial matters. it's also a mode of self-accountability because you actually have to OWN everything you say, and so it's best to be truthful. but people lie so much it gets exhausting, and especially when you're not really reaching anyone because some people who can't stop framing everything through their racial heritage don't like what you're saying about it.
I don't write about shit from any other perspective except from a neutral analysis on all the information I've read thus far, which is A LOT. like. it's almost too much for even an AI to analyze accurately. I actually tried to run some of the conspiracy journals through an AI and it spit out something retarded, which was disappointing because that meant I had to do more reading. my brain does get tired like anyone else's.
but this is an incredibly sketchy and sticky situation: I don't disagree with a lot of what Elon is doing to clean up the government, I just think that it's pretty low IQ to make personal beefs political, and that's probably what I can say ashley seems to do best. she apparently doesn't even know how to set up a chess board, though, and like...idk. I'm pretty much a musical genius so I won't diminuitively comment on intellectual capabilities.
it's just that when your hatred of another person turns murderous and you rely on the richest man in the world to somehow rationalize this, there probably will come a point where even he can't. I've never relied on him to do so because, like, bro is so easily manipulated by women it's low key hilarious. then again, it's not. this stuff is serious. if I got murdered because ashley and co went berserk from any attention or affirmation I may or may not be getting, that would be very bad.
it almost feels like the insurance policy on my life is mutually assured destruction. this is not to say that I'm super special, but when a little goblin looking Belurussian Jew starts calling me the "Queen of America" and "the future President" and telling me the day after TapeGate that I'm "the boss now" and I can "go to Mars" if I want to, then something is afoot and it's not an unserious thing.
but I honestly forgot about ashley as I assumed she got what she wanted and was happy about it. guess that wasn't the case and she was seriously UNHAPPY about not getting what she wanted, which was Elon's full and unwavering affirmation of her character. idk what to say about that except I was too busy working a shitty job at a roach infested hostel in Miami Beach and swimming in the ocean, just trying to reconcile lots of tragic feelings about how my music led to such madness. I did gaze out at Star Island from the harbor of Biscayne Bay numerous times wondering if there were human remains at the bottom, because there was something truly spooky about it at night.
and I can only imagine what it's like to be sitting up on an expensive condo with friends in high places who can routinely make a mockery of this experience, like, haha look what I get for being a "Jew Hater". obviously, that couldn't be further from the truth because a true friend sits a friend down and tells them directly that their madness is going to result in some unsavory future moments if they don't do some self-reflection. even the Jewish youths were about it. I went to the synagogue to reflect on the nature of God, not to deconvert from my Christianity.
and then they backstabbed me on final time.
that's when I finally said enough is enough and idc if this means the end of road for me. I filed that police report knowing that the chips will fall where they may, and I might be crucified for alleging that it was all orchestrated. I wouldn't call it a humiliation ritual, I would just call it a litany of crimes occurring in tandems by criminals doing their crimes in unison. and even I know that this is par-for-the-course for these people, ashley included. I am not the first person who got dragged out of the political party I was born into and called a "Democrat" and worse.
at this moment in time, you can't even open a Bible from the early 1900s and point out that the map says Palestine and not Israel to these people because they're so driven by their sanctimoniousness that they'll justify their own hate crimes. so it goes. there is nothing new under the sun.
shadowbans are the least of my worries, and I've been disqualified from being considered for whatever game show prize there was to be had. so be it. my dad, btw, taught me how to shoot a gun when I was maybe ten or eleven. I've never really had qualms with my Constitutional rights, nor anyone else's. definitely not to the extent where I'd demand someone be deplatformed or deprived of their rights. I think I did my own counterops better than most people ever could, and I have no regrets because the other option was just accepting an unjust fate and letting these people eventually throw me in prison for hurting their feelings.
sadly, it's not just the leftists, it's people on the right, too. and perhaps that's what gives my work additional meaning: I know that this is just human nature at play, nothing more and nothing less. I'm not really offended by anything these days.
yeah because why would I care if you call me a piece of shit. that's your problem.
