anxiety levels peaking.

have no choice but to say something tonight. she'll be thoroughly pissed if i wait until tomorrow to say anything about going.

not going to be happy about it tonight.

should have said something yesterday. anything at all. even just a simple "hey i've got plans this weekend" didn't have to go into detail. now there's going to be so many questions. when did you plan this, why didn't you say something sooner, what is it you're going to...

*panicking dracogryph noises*

:dragn_sad:

and it wasn't simply about the money. It's the whole collection of things that have happened in the last few days that nearly pushed me past the point of no return. I can only take so much at once, and my limit recently is far lower than it used to be.

Overwhelmed doesn't even begin to describe my current state. I should have known life would find a way to fuck me even harder than it already had.

I checked my bank this morning to see if all of the unexpected early bills had cleared yet, and see how much I had left. I wasn't expecting that more bills had posted while I was asleep.

I thought overdraft was disabled. No, that was "only for debit transactions" and "for your convenience, ACH transactions will still be processed"

Thanks, really fucking convenient.

So now, I'm not sure what I'm going to do.

Like I said before, I'm not asking all of you for any help this time. You've done far too much for me already. This is more of an informational post, so you know what's going on.

deep breaths critter... don't scream...

Hi.

I got distracted. Forgot I was supposed to stream tonight. Also forgot about time apparently, as it's now... 4:40am... Whoops.

Going to bed now.

Stream tomorrow hopefully? If I don't forget. Sorry about that.

Anyway, night y'all. :dragon_heart:

Finally done with everything. If I were to start setting up the stream right now, I could be live in about 15 minutes. Going to the time that I originally planned on ending, that would make the stream...

About 10 minutes.

So, yeah...

Hopefully tomorrow works out better.

Sorry, stream isn't going to happen tonight.

Going to try again tomorrow night, if I'm not at work too late.

-.=.-

Stream won't start for another two hours, minimum. If that makes any difference to anyone.

I think I want to do an nsfw art stream. Ideas?

Despite my earlier concerns, today has actually not been too bad.

Off to bed now.

Actually getting to bed before 1:30

(Yes it's the second 1:30 of the night, but it still counts damnit)

Night y'all :dragon_heart:

"I wanted to (do xyz) today, why did you get up so late?"

I'm so sorry that my illness has caused you any inconvenience. I'll go tell it to fuck off so the world can get back to revolving around you.

Setting up a LinkedIn profile, I hate it but I figure I'll need it to have any chance of getting a job. Doing their little "skill assessment" things.

What? If I'm in the top 5% the bar must not be very high.

Not a big fan of how the only medicine that actually helps also knocks me out for 4-6 hours.

Oh hey.

I'm awake again.

Work has ended.

Physically, feeling worse now. Was definitely not recovered enough to come back.

Emotionally, meh. Could be better, could be worse.

So tired.

Just want to go home and go to bed.

Still at work.

Still 3 hours left.

Still feel like crap.

Good night, you wonderful creatures.

I'm going to go cry myself to sleep and resume this dumpster fire I call a life in the morning.

:dragon_heart:

the green owl has been defeated for another day

Oh hey, it's November now...

*throws peanuts*

It's fine, they're not nuts, they're legumes.