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franny
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healing. ๐Ÿ’š

Whoops thanks for repeating that :) I really enjoy rich soups. ๐Ÿฒ

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Yes

Because theyโ€™re easily made? ๐Ÿค”

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Why?

You mean cooking much things that you can eat with a spoon ๐Ÿฅ„ ?

Peeps Iโ€™m seeking inspiration.

I find it always difficult to manage my meals (what to eat and when) and to stay aware that I donโ€™t have to throw away many leftovers or open/used packages with stuff in it.

Iโ€™m cooking on my own for about 2 years. I think it will get better over time but still,

Iโ€™m just curiousโ€ฆ how does your kitchen/meal/preb routine looks like? ๐Ÿง‘โ€๐Ÿณ #foodstr #food #cooking

I never expected me being a cave person too! More likely a market person. But thinking back I am realizing how uncomfortable I feel in environments I donโ€™t consider as โ€žsafeโ€œ and how bad I tried to fit in. Sittin in the middle of a restaurant is super uncomfortable, need to observe the room. Iโ€™m always like โ€žwho wants to sit thereโ€ฆ.โ€œ Iโ€™m most creative at homeโ€ฆ in peaceโ€ฆ. :)

Can you identify with the environment mountain?

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Very interesting, nostr:npub1995y964wmxl94crx3ksfley24szjr390skdd237ex9z7ttp5c9lqld8vtf. I feel curious to discover what kind of personality i am (if any). How do I study this categorization you offered? What are the other probable types? Where the screenshot is from? Please guide me if that's okay with you. ๐ŸŒฟ

Iโ€™ve sent a request!

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Very interesting, nostr:npub1995y964wmxl94crx3ksfley24szjr390skdd237ex9z7ttp5c9lqld8vtf. I feel curious to discover what kind of personality i am (if any). How do I study this categorization you offered? What are the other probable types? Where the screenshot is from? Please guide me if that's okay with you. ๐ŸŒฟ

Would absolutely love to bring that knowledge closer to you newton! ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ will text you on simplex. ๐Ÿคโœจ

Thanks, I can only say the same about you. I appreciate you a lot, plant buddy! ๐ŸŒฟ all the hopes, absolutely worth it.

Now get ready, make yourself fresh and start your day with a good feeling!!! ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ๐Ÿซถ

Replying to Avatar Dan Wedge

The Fall of Wedge. The Rise of Organics.

Tldr

My life is getting better i have found purpose beyond what my family provides but the lingering effects of not living my life for me still grabs me. Thank you for loosening the grip on my war.

Until I was 35 I was not living my life. I was living, trying to live up to, everyone else's version of me.

The result was a degree in fine arts, two amazing kids and a very understanding wife so I got lucky. But my life was a Minimum-Value Worker pushing hard to be a manager or someone who could be proud of my paycheck and in providing for my family.

When it became apparent that I was only to be an MVW it crushed me as I would not make the worlds goal for me. I sank with the weight of alcohol weed and depression.

It came together to form a bottom where I was a first-time blackout drunk with puke on my suit, my car, and my wife. That was almost 2 years ago. I think I just had my last drink recently and coffee and processed food is next on the list.

The farm. I read โ€œRich Dad Poor Dadโ€ in my teens I never met someone who could model it so it was a dream. Then I saw an opportunity, that I wanted. A farm to give me something to be proud of, to work on and build that provides for my family. And so it starts and not even a full year in I can see the momentum starting to build.

I still carry the weight of old Dan, I donโ€™t like saying yes as it brings responsibility. I hate responsibility to other people. It was never something I chose, it was always delegated. I feel even though I am an adult I had to do many things that I had no heart for, or else. It crushes me some days usually when the shoulda have started, procrastination is a curse. I should have said this, called this person, put in for this. It all feels like it's not for me but for them.

When the shouldas don't plague me I find the โ€œmeaning crisisโ€ does. What do I want to do? How? Why?

I know the answer is my kids, wife, the farm. It doesnโ€™t make the feeling any better though. So I go out to the farm, on my own to be alone.

I found a group that supports me and pushes me like I have never felt. Thank you each of you have put more in my energy than you know. Don't stop, I can't.

Thank you

Thank you for sharing a part of your story with us. ๐Ÿค๐Ÿซ‚ you can be a really proud dad, husband and farmer. ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ

Hmu if you would like to talk about it with me. Would love it โœจ๐Ÿ’œ

Big sorryyyy ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ itโ€™s daytime here and screenshots ๐Ÿฅฒ๐Ÿคฃ