I dunno, just pick one. I'm not the one dying and desperate to fill the spirituality hole in my psyche.

>Any advice on how to handle all this?

Go to church.

Finally! Where were you 2 hours ago

5 And he said to me, “Go, weigh for me the weight of fire, or measure for me a measure[a] of wind, or call back for me the day that is past.”

6 I answered and said, “Who of those that have been born can do this, that you ask me concerning these things?”

7 And he said to me, “If I had asked you, ‘How many dwellings are in the heart of the sea, or how many streams are at the source of the deep, or how many streams are above the firmament, or which are the exits of hell, or which are the entrances[b] of paradise?’ 8 Perhaps you would have said to me, ‘I never went down into the deep, nor as yet into hell, neither did I ever ascend into heaven.’ 9 But now I have asked you only about fire and wind and the day, things through which you have passed and without which you cannot exist,[c] and you have given me no answer about them!” 10 And he said to me, “You cannot understand the things with which you have grown up; 11 how then can your mind comprehend the way of the Most High? And how can one who is already worn out[d] by the corrupt world understand incorruption?”

Why doesn’t Ralph like the PPN? I only remember graf trying to shut down that other guys instance because Ralph posted grafs face or something.