Where is the reserve?

Probably 99%+

-What’s a movie from the past 25 years that hasn’t gotten enough attention in your view? Something that punches way above its weight. 😇

-The spicier question. What’s a movie from that same time period that is very popular, including kind of in your own social circle, that you think is kind of mid or overrated but it’s too awkward to say, but you’ll drop it in a Nostr comment? 😈

I believe something near the root of our societal problems today is The Death of God that happened nearly 150 years ago, and the society that was birthed from this patricide.

The sort of unhinged self-hatred that emerges from this murder is one that cannot see itself in the reflection of god, but only his death. All structures and former ways of being must be wiped away, are no longer venerated or respected, because nothing is really capable of that any longer in this society. It is a society of a dark forest where the hollow men reign, and purpose is pointlessness.

It is only through the long private sojourn into the dark of night towards the true existential angst, the questing towards the question of being itself, and what the lostness within this darkness means, that the pinprick of the light meaning could ever be found. But that demands a decision of agency, the desire to know if it is only blackness or something more. The death of god explicitly fills the void of society with this lack of thinking as thinking; the black ink of nothingness to create a meaningless life where such a seeking is pointless within itself.

It is only once we take the leap into the unknown, into the possibility that there could be something, and not nothing, that the possibility of something different, something beyond the nihilism itself becomes a possibility.

I get a ton of questions about my husband. As a somewhat public figure I suck at privacy, while he is a privacy maxi.

He’s my main editor, oversees support on my website, and yet quietly is like “nah, don’t want any attention.”

In 2021 when I went to a dinner/meeting at Saylor’s house, my husband dropped me off and then picked me up as my personal ride. To Saylor’s credit, he came out personally at night to make sure I was safe while I waited on the curb for a ride, as his only female guest that night and Miami at night can be challenging.

The next day my husband dropped me off at some VC event and my friend Elizabeth Stark was aware enough to be like “you got out of the front seat of that uber. It wasn’t an uber, was it?”

And I was like “No, that was my husband, lol.” He dropped me off at every similar event event that year (Ubers were hard to hire in 2021, amid pandemic constraints, so he rented a Camaro, since normal utility cars were sold out, and he drove me around in it to my various events and then wouldn’t enter them even though he could.

For years since then he does stuff like this. Touches events but purposely won’t attend.

We have a ton of pictures, but he doesn’t like them to be public, and allowed a 2022 vacation post, which I still use. Adding a second one here as a Nostr exclusive. The second ever public pic of him.

His first name is Mohamed, the most popular first name in the world, and yet hardly anyone knows his last name. Which is how he wants it.

He had dinner with Peter McCormack in Manhattan once, and then the only side event I ever got him to show up at was in Bedford at Peter’s CheatCode event. So Mohamed met Natalie Brunell, Preston Pysh, and a few other people there. And then went dark again.

In 2022 amid the bitcoin bear market capitulation depths while I was buying, he was like “So, how many do we have? Okay thanks for the breakdown, add way more here.” It’s up 500% since then.

When family members ask me about. Bitcoin, I’m like “well it’s this open source people can…” and then Mohamed intervenes and is like “She’s being polite. And also kind of her robotic retard self. You should buy a lot of it, here’s why.” Then proceeds to orange pill the entire extended family.

He watches some of my podcasts and knows a ton of people in both the bitcoin space and macro space, and then quietly is like “I’ll literally drive you there but then I’ll stay away, privately.”

He’s the GOAT at not drawing attention.

He also lies Nostr but doesn’t post here; or anywhere. He likes hearing updates though.

He unintentionally made himself as a meme by not posting publicly and being private. And yet if he saw it, embed be like “it’s ephemeral. Building a fitness facility is her gets direct sun. Need your input on whether it will meet our goals, since you optimize all these details.”

My favorite bitcoiner, who isn’t a bitcoiner.

GM

I used to be hypercritical and judgmental of myself.

“That’s just the way I am” I would say.

But then I realized: it wasn’t my voice at all. It was my father’s—echoing through the corridors of my mind, long after he had passed away.

When I realized that I began to reframe the way I would speak to myself.

Now I speak to myself the way I speak to my children. With love and grace and understanding.

And not surprisingly it makes it easier to be non-judgmental towards others.

lol yes. i literally teach & host retreats on these practices. there is no one key to attracting a wonderful partner when your job here is to heal. 🌞

trusting gods time.

life has always set me up to learn hard mf lessons in solitude.

i can’t say it’s fun nor something i look forward to, i definitely can’t say i enjoy the lone-wolf-type life it reinforces…

but i’m grateful it’s made me fearless of the ruthless winds of time.

i’m glad i have the strength to hold myself…

i’m glad i have the strength not only for me, but for every person i see. in my business, in my community, in my life.

i may be drowning in my own life’s troubles, but i somehow find the strength to carry others thru their moment of weakness. thru their dance with change.

and i think it’s pretty cool.

no matter how many tough nights alone, tubs of ice cream, or hot baths it takes. i’m so glad i’ve built the courage to be a beacon of light in this existence.

i’m so glad i chose love.

i’m so glad i chose love.

i’m so glad i choose love.

remember, you can just choose love.

#fuckfiat #fuckfear #gn nostr

2025-03-19, 23:59 UTC

334 days after halving

Current: $86,774.24

2012 scaled: $1,014,866.66

2016 scaled: $274,102.37

2020 scaled: $444,790.01

The Tesla terrorists are the weirdest form of NPC that has manifested in recent decades.

The most important moments of your life will require great faith.

You have to believe it will all work out, before you can do anything meaningful.

five years ago, the us went into lockdown, destroying many lives in the process

since then:

married

had a son

launched ten31

launched opensats

launched bitcoin park

launched bitcoin policy institute

push forward, never stop 🫡