October is for cutting people off <3
the voices in my head are telling me to get the Taco Bell veggie cravings box with a chalupa, bean burrito, potato’s and a Baja blast ✨✨✨
you want me to lock in?? bitch I’m locked OUT ❌
absolutely. I don’t have a car and rarely drive, so I can be a bit anxious on the road but today went great! the park was also a big plus, loved walking around and seeing dragonfly’s and ducks.
went to a farmers market (lowkey bust it was so hot), successfully drove my friends car, then got to a park and felt a little more reconnected with nature. also got some tea. 
I’m sure chatgpt would have something to say
frequently used emojis ✨ 
asked the universe to give me the strength to get through my sadness and then twenty minutes later I start posting a ton of TikToks… mania strikes again 😎
when I’m feeling depressed, I just remember that I am doing infinitely better than I was several years ago and even last year. I honestly have felt so much better since putting that into perspective. I don’t need to punish myself for my sadness and (big shocker here) that makes me feel a lot better than the self hatred.
yesss that sounds so nice
Thanks! I’m going up a mountain next weekend for sure
nah it was a good idea, I’ll turn myself back off tonight and hopefully have entertaining dreams
I just want to run away to the mountains 😔 or the coast. I just need a little more escapism in my life.
the good thing about feeling melodramatic is that you actually get the urge to write again. wrote three poems this morning. I’ve been suppressing a lot of my sadness this past month and I feel glad I was able to break through that barrier today.
at least I don’t have a victim complex 🦋