What spawned tonight's hurt was finding out I'm not as accepted by my roommates as I thought.

We discussed moving the date when utilities are paid. All I asked for was a little help remembering while I adjust to the new schedule.

"You need to grow up and do things on your own. You're an adult, Koda" from the one who's chronic fatigue is why I often power through sensory and germophobia hell and spend what few spoons I have to do extra dishes, her dishes, to assist a disabled roommate.

My #Linux server has 3 kernels on it.

The oldest one stops booting, takes ages to error "timed out waiting for the udev queue being empty" 4 times, and then resumes. It's like 5 minutes waiting for this.

The other 2 newer kernels just keep repeating that error forever and never resume boot.

I have read many forums, tried many things, from noapic and nomodeset to turning crap off in BIOS.

It's driving me nuts, as I can't remotely reboot it, it'd just go to the newest kernel and get stuck on it

I can't update #Linux on my laptop.

I can't install the new kernel because removing the old nvidia-utils breaks the dependency for the old nvidia-utils.

These issues that break updates are getting more frequent and are absolutely infuriating.

Oooh I feel like shit. Yeah, I think I fucked up taking my meds.

Maybe I'm immature but I'm amused "Putin" sounds like "poopin".

Biden: "There is no place in America for political violence, or any violence!"

Really? No place in America for violence?

I dunno, violence seems to have been given a nice, snug, cozy place within our country's police departments.

Capitalism also gives violence a warm embrace.

Christianity and violence are best friends!

I may have accidentally taken my Adderall twice. Am I in danger?

Those of you who #3DPrint, what's the best infinity cube mode you know of?

I feel very broken, useless, pathetic, inadequate.

I feel like a burden, undeserving of help.

I feel... the others are doing ok, why do I struggle so much? Why would I feel my struggles are "more important" than Joe NT Smoe being exhausted after work?

I'm so brilliant, I have a high IQ - but can't do basic shit?! wtf!

Just... a lot of negative headspace around what I'm struggling so much with.

😭

nostr:npub1k06ctulq8rcaen067tt6z3y6gxrqtsuje5em5lcn009zfpp0t7gqf0zyu9

*you're

And I'm on the right platform, thanks.

nostr:npub1k06ctulq8rcaen067tt6z3y6gxrqtsuje5em5lcn009zfpp0t7gqf0zyu9

I don't know what fucking scammy shit you're trying to pull

nostr:npub1k06ctulq8rcaen067tt6z3y6gxrqtsuje5em5lcn009zfpp0t7gqf0zyu9 Yeah, take another look at my user name. I am not from Mostr.

Also, it's "you're not", so maybe rethink who you're calling dumb.

nostr:npub1k06ctulq8rcaen067tt6z3y6gxrqtsuje5em5lcn009zfpp0t7gqf0zyu9

Ah, yet another from Mostr. No wonder your reply is assinine.

You guys have formed a pattern. If the username looks like one of my passwords, and from mostr.pub, it'll be an asshole.

nostr:npub1k06ctulq8rcaen067tt6z3y6gxrqtsuje5em5lcn009zfpp0t7gqf0zyu9 Alright let me just pull up my favorite game playing music and... Oh dear, I don't have thousands of tracks of music in /home/hellomiakoda/Music

What a surprise. It's almost like I would have fucking thought of that if I fucking had the music I like on hand.

PS5's non-game feature set is objectively worse than PS4!

Feature PS4 has that PS5 can (won't!) do:

Web Browser (I'm aware there's a trick)

DLNA music playback.

DLNA Video Playback.

Tidal playback (Via Plex app)

Themes

Curiosity Stream (despite PS4 backward compatibility - which the Spotify app used till the PS5 app was finished!)

Remote Play via PS Vita

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You know damn well what I mean.

It's the same idea as the fact that when I call you a fucking 2 by 4, I do not mean you are literally a piece of lumber engaged in coitus.

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You are being deliberately obtuse, Mr serial number

nostr:npub1hq7fz9q8c4mqqs6xz48nzpme6tqvulc2u6j6qf3qe0kzude462eqnefhvp

No. I don't associate with nazis and nazi suppotters.

And no, I don't just take someone's word that someone else is a damn nazi. I don't have to.

I just hop on the internet and watch, hear, and read the nazis themselves tell me they're fuckin nazis!

I have eyes and ears of my very own that work reasonably well, and the brain cells to process that input with.

I keep hearing this crap about unity. I'd love it if everyone got along, at least well enough to leave each other alone. Very enticing concept... Except for one ELEPHANT in the room...

I'm not compatible with unity with people who want certain groups of innocent people to stop existing. Especially when I'm in at least two of said groups, and I have friends in even more of those groups. I don't want to be united with fucken nazis. I'm not capable of it! Nazis bad!