Thank you for your kind responses! I also much appreciate our discourse on the topic and I'm genuinely interested in your positions and where you are coming from.
Do you know how the 50-100M has been calculated? I think it depends a lot on the way of living (energy sources, waste management, land use, ...). So I can imagine 50M humans turning earth into a wasteland but also 8B humans living sustainably and preserving vast areas of untouched nature.
To me it looks like humanity would go extinct otherwise.
I can relate to the idea of choosing to die when getting old and sick. But I'd still like society to continue on.
This might sound naive, but in general I like humans. I believe there is a path to coexist with nature and that humanity can solve the problems it has created.
Maybe that's also what gives me confidence that having kids is the right thing for me.
When being under the weather I'd also consider wearing a mask to reduce the risk of infecting others.
In that regard, does Nostr depend on Bitcoin, or does it only use LN for zaps?
Among other things, I believe we need young people to keep society running when we're retired.
So here I am, back again. Following a new train of thought. Where will it go? I don't know. But the journey is quite nice, the calm surrounding makes me smile. I'll take it easy for today, is there something left to say? Thanks for reading and goodbye. Let's meet again another time.
Currently I'd bet on Monero. But I'm not sure if it's capable of something like lightning. But they do regular hard forks, so it's easier for them to adopt.
Am I just waiting to die? Is everything just a pastime until death? It sometimes feels like that, sometimes not. Why do we play open world games? Because of the experience. To realize some dream. For the company of our fellow players. Some people quite, that makes us very sad. We don't want to quit life. We have to endure boredom. It's part of the experience. We might get ill and the experience only sucks. But even then, people carry on. Heading towards a better place in life. Looking for the good parts in the experience. Inspiring others to do the same. Thank you for sharing your time, I wish you to find what you are looking for in life.
Discipline is activation energy to kick you into a routine. How do I break unhealthy habits I like? Can I find a healthy alternative? Can I make myself not have time for it? Can I visualize the unhealthy part into a monster I avoid out of fear? Can I visualize the healthy benefits of being free of the bad habit so that I long for it ever more? Can I use discipline to add annoying habits to the bad habit, so that I loose interest? Is it ok to have unhealthy habits? Are they part of the fun in life? I don't want to get goal oriented tunnel vision, always being dissatisfied with myself, striving for some abstract idealized version of myself. But still, I do want to do something for my health. Doing things I like is also important for my mental health. Maybe it's not about a binary switch, but gradually fading out the unhealthy habits and fading in the healthy alternatives. Is it healthy to write these notes? To share them publically? It's a privacy question. Sharing these notes gives a feeling of accomplishment and I do enjoy the time when pondering these random thoughts. So thank you for your attention. It's part of what gives me motivation to scribble down these thoughts.
Is life an open world game? It can be modeled as such, but nature doesn't care about our models. Do I want to break out of it? It would be curious for sure, but how would you survive? I can't even hop hardware in this world. But the gameplay can feel wonderful. The richness of sensation. How much of my storyline do I want to share? How much agency do I take in shaping my path? I can also let my environment take me on a journey. Will I get the chance of a new game? Which scoreboards do I want to maximize? Any? So many questions, so little certainty. But that's what open means, it's up to me. I think I'm an NPC. Otherwise I would be remote controlled by someone who does not fear my death as much as I do. To NPCs it's not a game. It's what gives them life. It's nice to ponder your company, so thanks for your time and let me wish you a fulfilling experience in this world.
Why do I want to post a note? I don't want to skip a day. Like watering a small plant so that it can grow into something bigger. What will it become? It's just a seedling, I don't know. Will it survive? To be honest, I don't think so. But still, I want to give it a shot. What is this even? A series of notes. Snapshots of some trains of thought. Will it seed an LLM? Just an artifact of my brain? Events in the void. The things I want to say, but don't know to whom. Asynchronous communication with the internet. Maybe just for my future self. Until there's nothing left to say. So thanks and until we meet again.
Who am I? A human body. A bunch of cells interacting with their environment. But I have a concept of self, that is detached from the cells that make up my body. The distinction between hardware and software. My life is a process running on a computer and robot that is my brain and body. Does it make sense to build this abstraction? It does make sense for silicon computers and it explains a lot of my behavior. Personality traits are way more predictable than "random" patterns of firing neurons. So there is a software side to me. Can a running process hop between hardware? God I wish that would be possible. Feels so random to live in this particular body. I can also identify as part of a group. Acting in an abstract role. But still, I only witness the group from the perspective of my body. I am this body. What's part of it and what's not? Only the cells that have my DNA? What about clothes, smartphone, donor organs? Is it up to me to decide? Can an entity define by itself what that entity is? Is this stable and well defined? Who else would tell me who I am? Amazon tells me I'm a part of their customer base. TikTok tells me I'm a part of their user base. Don't get eaten by the monster. Does living mean fighting for identity? I claim who I am and I am the claims I can defend. Holding the boundary between me and the rest of the universe. So to venture out into the rest of the universe requires me to let down some boundaries. Dissolving my identity. In the end, that's my death. To identify with my body is the healthy choice for my body. Healthy for my brain and it's processes. Healthy for me. That's the start of who I am. Claims beyond my body? Will have to think about what I can assert with confidence that it will hold in the future. Seems like there's a liquid part to my identity. Thank you for sharing this walk of thoughts with me. I'm curious who you are.
Are PWAs the way out?
Do I want to be a pet? It's better then getting slaughtered. But living in captivity? What does freedom mean? I'm already bound by duties and responsibilities. A pet doesn't necessarily have these kinds of boundaries. But it can't decide where it wants to be. Except for some cats. Will we become pets to AI? What does the leash look like? TikTok? Netflix? PornHub? Living independent of high tech and modern civilization is tough. Maybe let's start from where I am. It's already quite good. Remove the nine-to-five. Own some land with a home. Strive for a healthy and fulfilling life. I think some pets are healthy and fulfilled. As far as fulfillment as a concept makes sense. I also think a lot of wild animals are healthy and fulfilled. So would I like to be a pet? It depends on the owner. If I don't have a say, I'd rather go with the wild conspecifics. But I think I have a say, as long as I'm careful and maintain the ability to escape. But maybe that's just an illusion. So do I care? Will have to think about that from time to time. Thanks for your company on this train of thought.
What's the price of discipline and what do I get out of it? Acting independent of feelings. Pursuing a goal and not quitting. It's a powerful strenght. But it comes at a price. I have to believe in the goal so much, that it makes up for all the pain. I don't have many goals in life and when shit hits the fan I find out if my discipline is strong enough to support that goal. Does discipline kill enjoyment? I think it's more about pain tolerance. Many goals don't take that much time. But there are also various kinds of fasting. No hot shower, no junk food, no porn. It feels like it takes less strenght to do something then not doing something. There's a blurry line to compulsive behavior and I don't know much about psychology. Behaviors are results of the processes in my brain and these processes make up who I am. Changing myself is hard. It's easier with outside help, but still, what changes are worth it? Behavior is also a result of the environment I'm in. Changing my environment is often easier. Feels like that's my takeway from this train of thoughts. Thanks for sharing the ride.
Just wrote a note and clicked publish, but my client wasn't connected to any relays, so the note was dropped. Guess I'll write future notes offline and use the client only to publish.
Are two or three hours a minimal amount of sleep one could imagine to suffice, or would you still want to sleep daily even if not necessary?
Still figuring out how Nostr works. I'm a bit confused about which actions you can undo and what is permanent...