still, it was the last musical with my mom
how strange to have the cd first and fall in love and imagine what the story could possibly be
to then go see the show
and be so frightened
the loud gunshot
the ugliness of what it was about
it was nothing like my dream
when i only had the songs
no more wars to fight
white flags fly tonight
you are out of danger now
battlefield is still
wild poppies on the hill
peace can only come when you surrender
hear the traitors fly
lighting up the sky
but il fight until thee
end
let them send their armies
i will never bend
i wont see you now
til i surrender
il see you again
when i
surrender
do you have to know what you launder to launder it
i joked with a friend once
in real life over the phone
about the meetings she attends
where people sit at tables allocating huge sums to address issues like famine and projections about future water shortages
i joked: you are the illuminati
and she laughed
and i said: no really
do you think the illuminati know they are illuminati?
do you have to be consenting to manufacture consent
too funny to me
nothing at all to me
wouldnt be anything at all to any photographer or anyone who works with lighting
my shape with my arms with my middle fingers made the shadow of Barad-dûr
and then i turned around
so the sun was at my back
and what did i see?
then i dabbed for the first time in my life which made me laugh
and the sun came out
and i stood on the bench and gave it two middle fingers arms raised high?
humanity has never lacked for humanity
what it is
the time it takes to knit a sock
to hear someone is having a baby
to make a mobile, a dreamcatcher, to fold the paper cranes
what it is
when you dont have to
when you have far better things to be doing with your time
when you arent compelled
when it isnt dogma
when you arent tied up cos you would feel guilty if you didnt
what it is
for free
cos can spare it
cos why not
cos just because
cos just cos
cos
in so far as: what is real?
love is real
family is real
lending a stranger a hand when you really didnt have to
big people out there may be overleveraged
hands may be tied
hands may shake & tie in peace
may be all these things
does it matter?
that little moths are free to dance under the moon
that they are not sucked into artificial lights