truly earthquake california

the whole thing

fuck off internet

never.

never ever ever ever ever.

the fact that someone did

that a stranger did

is so fucking game over it isnt even funny

the license

the audacity

is so so so so so deeply unwell

never in my entire wildest dreams would i ever in very all my life do that to someone

well, that settles that

cant have a rule break like that

that is actually a true security threat like i have a stranger who is a stalker who doesnt know me irl but does think they can leave a note on my ipad

tpot connected wild

i hadn't realized my ipad had been violated

thats so good to know

change of plans.

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~~~~~~~~> i have to go retrieve my notes from the workshop i have to jump backwards in time and find that work i did and bring it up to here

~~~~~~~~~~~~~> i will be offline until i solve this

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~>thanksokbye

it is way way easier to listen to something all nauseating or all eyerolling

it really catches me up being in and then having to hard break

this happened constantly over four days

i wanted to quit that workshop so hard

so it was like .. a single person talking or two people having a convo and my emotions would go like

" 🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂😚🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂😒🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🤮🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙄🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂"

which is a very complicated space

tough and complicated cos new age community and i was having hiv / immune system reactive emotional issues with some of the postures and vibes

there was a virtual workshop bayo was talking at that i signed up for and that was tough and complicated but cool

i loved learning about the weed nuns

there has been a future all my life where i end up in a nunnery

that is a door that never closes to me

i really liked battlestar galactica

havent seen it in ages

never did a rewatch

🫤 having an angela moment

where ya cant talk about physics without contributing to the issue so the solution is cede the ground

like a darth maul thing?

have you used inks before on black paper? all colors will show up that way

not being in balance with it

drowning in it cos it is all i want to do

to the neglect of other areas of my life

💜🫂💜 im struggling with workaholicism



good morning

good afternoon

good evening

and goodnight

need some

me time like im r2d2 in powerdown mode in the force awakens

im just chillin gathering dust like a trashcan while bb8 is rolling around

if there is a 5d new age dimension

im not even in 3d

i am 2ding it

anyway, no music tonight for me

just thinking and reading the news and flat life

the fergie thing i did solve it

its a mondegreen i meant

re: systems like allergies like

flareups

like lmao dude im thinkin about hiv

changing channels between

fergie and afi

the radio is so funny rn

pace and sanity and peace

pragmatics

rest often

with a couple things untwisted

that are twisted

i think shit will be fine

im optimistic about it

but all this stuff is going thru 2028

so

like

shit wasnt built in a day

so what is that an extension of?

the generosity of mohawk nation.

like: twin flame therapy dot co dot gov

honey he isnt the one

i promised he murdered you in a past life

obviously someone can twin flame on a flower, on a cloud, on a single person, on twenty people, on two thousand people

but again, very little daylight

many people just suffering it out

not saying suffering is "wrong"

saying it would be nice to have some more off ramps and care

to me, as a friend

besides: oh no

i was like: make this two oh no's

so they got divorced

why

was she unfaithful first?

im pretty sure yea

helps pull me back to work

i think that is ok

when it is play not mandated

but i am taking stock re: workaholic cos i dont want that for me

playtime idk

a fun casual thing experimenting

can delete each reoccurring letter

then look at the alphabet left in order

fair to have dessert?

in this genocide starvation economy?

no

but would you want me to?

if i were me would i want me to

never

for you would i?

yes