no one deserves that
was never ever ever ever ever gonna do that
so just sat there for a bit
watching the halftime show with him so he wasnt alone
also glancing at horrific tweets coming in
in real time
cos if i said i was kill that man
my dad would say who
& i was never gonna have that conversation with my dad
cos i would never introduce your existence to my dad that way
just have to blink
cant say im gonna kill that man
cant say anything
just gotta blink
all nonplussed
like this is fine
everything is so normal
what it is like
to walk into my family room
while palestine is on fire
see your face
be like 😶
while my dad is sitting in the rocking chair he got in maine for my mom
to breast feed me
from thomas moser
that he had restored
cos it broke
they fixed it
we had one box tv
a small one giant heavy
my mom hated tv
no tvs in bedrooms
ever was her thing
that is a house rule cos this is her house my dad built for her that she hated the moment it was finished
literally the day it was finished
she wanted a small house in ridgewood instead
anyway
my dad wanted a flatscreen for years
was just doing research
wasnt ready
Fletcher Previn just
without consent mind you
bought one & just sent it to the house
how brave do you think i am ðŸ˜
i am trying so hard
to be just ~this~ brave bro
or if u were just like
how about this idk
like what im
saying is worthy of a movie
level drama
so music + whoever came up with the structure of twwtr havent even read the origin story
literally do not know
like if it is a saga like fb
of theft & crimes
which, as anyone can imagine
was a fucking mess
actually
completely plotless
if it sounded good in my ears
i would then make it make sense as an afterthought
wasnt even about the content
it was all just ear music sound i loved
wordplay of earmusic
cos otherwise
like before that
my shit would get way way way way too
musical
just worked for me
& so easy to delete all my work