i want to be left alone
i didnt deserve any of this
i dont deserve any of this
i dont even want reparations
there is no repairing years & years of this
just ignore it
just take it
just shut up
no one wants to hear it
and take it
just be quiet
just take it
no one to
tell
nothing to prove
no one to believe me
nothing to
matter
not red no bumps no rash
he was getting a tattoo
in that exact spot
😞 waking up flipping out
in the middle of the
night convinced of spider
bite
or rash
like very real physical pain
like
i s2g i would
get hungover
not that often
but certain times
man
entirely sober certain days
i just had to guess like
oh
not even able to talk enough
to compromise
to figure out consent stuff
really painful
really
frightening
really
really
really
lonely making & sad making
do you know how much this hurts my feelings
that for years i suffered phantom stuff
& had to just wonder with no answer if that was joey related
cos he literally wouldnt talk to me
even tho this physically affected my body
me drinking way less water than jack & more coffee & cigarettes is enough to do this
what makes it worse
is it could just be correspondence issues nostr:note18eu6vg9ftyk3tzus7dr0jafpndtmtlsws9mc68k2dxcez3ens8yqmd7etv
are people fully
aware of how painful
& how
rude waking up
this
way