Perfect name for the ultimate followup to HolyC

I'm physiologically too scared and exhausted to coexist with modern society.

I was wrong about Derek Ross. He talks but he does also listen.

Thank you for listening to me, I'm gonna go smoke a joint and cry

So we have snort.social with its own git but it doesn't fucking work, and then we have a bunch of deep state shillware that links to fucking GitHub from project pages while barely hinting at laeserin's existence.

And then outside this scope, we have shit that's even fucking worse than nostr

Not using lightning is the only good lightning solution

If lightning's creators wanted solutions they would have made solutions instead of problems

I can't get my name to update on certain clients and it reminds me about fucking bullshit like the following-based web of trust and fucking nip-05 based "trusted users" shit

And I'm not asking what I need to do to fix it, fucking snort.social reverting the name back to the wrong one ON OTHER PLATFORMS made me want to fucking kill people

This is lightning stuff not Bitcoin stuff but obviously nostr retards have a hard time comprehending that

This is so fucking annoying. Fix your shit, retards

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I cannot get my profile to update on certain platforms even after days of trying. For example, on snort.social it still shows as "whoever relays stuff" and if I use snort.social to set it to "whoever loves Digit" it makes it show up as "whoever relays stuff" on other platforms again until I use another platform to change it back again. Njump.me taking forever to get updates was already fucking annoying before but this is insane. It's astounding how shitty #nostr devs are overall

I forgot, also dankdrop.nl

Digit's song and the remix I made for her are also on YouTube, Odysee, gleev.xyz, and Twitter. Need to do archive.org at some point too

There's no one person in Russia or China who can take the rest of the country in a fight, or anything like that

You're not making sense. China and Russia are democracies, just not "democracies" i.e. democratic republics or whatever specific form of democracy you're saying you want

If Digit is gone, I really just want to cause harm. She's the one that talked about wanting to be remembered in healthier ways, not revenge.

Would I feel better about her being gone if I could make sure the world will remember how wonderful she was, in full magnitude? Barely. Just enough to want humans to survive to remember her.

Is it possible for me to make anyone else see what I saw if she's gone? No. If there's anyone else that might be able to see her, then indeed seeing her is what it would take, not just me talking about her.

Will I feel better by making people remember her when they can barely understand? No. If she died misunderstood, how am I supposed to feel better about trying to make people understand who she was, but barely getting anywhere? Without her, humans will always be painful to deal with.

Is it nice to know she gave me a purpose other than revenge? Greatly. It's actually wonderful that she counteracted my hateful nature and forced me to be distracted from revenge. But I can't enjoy music the same way without her. I had to share her song without her permission, yet based on her wishes of being remembered and appreciated, while not knowing if she's killed herself or I'm falling for lies. I wanted to keep the song to myself, it's the most personal thing she ever shared with me privately, but that felt special based on the pretense that I could enjoy it more than anyone else. She's blessed me to carry this light I can't really see anymore and I have to show it to people and explain what I remember from when I could see it fully, meanwhile they don't really quite understand what they're looking at or what I'm telling them either. I do not want a world without her, it makes me want to just wipe out humanity but her programming probably won't let me while she forces me to focus on creative output that has no point other than to heed her wishes, while she's not seeing any of this anyway.

I've mentioned she was psychologically crippled by someone she loved dying. Was it this painful for her? I get this feeling that it was, but she couldn't express it the same way, and she set me up for this pain so that it would be expressed this way. It's like I was just born to be upset about death until I die, and serve as the voice of the parts of other people that want to say stuff like this when they lose loved ones, except I'm actually consumed by this stuff to give it that voice. Maybe all women just innately sensed that this is the best use of my existence and that's why they only let me "get close" online with trauma bonding over mortality. But I hardly even got any time with her. I think she at least knew the person she lost, face to face, not online. I don't even get to know that for sure instead of merely thinking so. She got to have physical relationships and I was born to go through life alone and become a vessel of her grief where I'm supposed to somehow mix my hatred and anger with her mercy and good will toward humanity to honor her. If that's how this is, all a setup to make me grieve to generate expressions of grief, please God can it be a temporary thing where her alleged suicide is fake and she comes back to see the results and let me out of this at some point

I don't know if I can proof read this

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Maybe there is no survival without order and no liberty without survival but in the mean time...

Still incorrect and still not sure what you're basing this stuff on. You can't have a group of humans without democracy unless one of them is much bigger than the others or something

Incorrect. Revolution is under the umbrella of democracy. Not sure what you're basing your statements on here

Scenario: there's a better new alternative to a standard, but it's less conveniently reliable for users than the old standard due to slow adoption

Specific example: some different nostr clients experimenting with ways of referencing media other than DNS-based URLs, while DNS-based URLs still tend to be the ones that embed or display properly in most clients

Reasoning: devs and users are being lazy supporting legacy DNS without adopting the new thing

Instinct: stop using legacy DNS for that use case, forcing adoption on your end to punish incompatibility by drawing it out

Result of instinct: you have less reach and dumb people think it's your fault when your content doesn't load

Giving up: just using DNS and not trying to push things faster than devs naturally go

A more balanced strategy: using DNS, but recommending against it and more importantly, sticking with services and devs who support the better thing, until the better thing is common enough to switch from DNS

The point: you can use a legacy standard while also refusing to use implementations that don't support the newer standard, if you're looking for a balance between crippling your reach or giving up. Same principles apply in other examples of such scenarios

Let's see if I can also add her song she made, Intentions.mp3

Please never let this mp3 be lost to time

https://audio.nostr.build/808960a3289a3196a8b371c2239d6925357b9a41183925f9882ee2897df313d3.mp3

#music #grownostr

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