It’s freeing to be temporarily homeless and travel around - you don’t care about all those ‘big deals’ of the countries 🥹

I don’t want to be impressed; as impression is someone around the corner can easily beat.

I want to admire, because true admiration is genuine [and honestly, I rarely do admire]. Admiration comes to what the person, the man truly is; but it’s not for the effortless; admiration comes for the intentional being. And that’s rare.

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Admiration is earned; while I what else is impressing someone than proving own worth? And why to prove if you’re aware of it, when you know own worth?

Tao te Ching

Virtue of selfishness (Ayn Rand)

Six pillars of self esteem (it’s actually a truly good book on psychology)

Almanac of naval ravikant

Now I read atlas shrugged and I’d say indeed it changes my life :)

Overall, the books change me, they shape my perspective on the world and myself. It’s my compensation of good intellectual conversation. It influences us :)

I admit I feel the link between self actualization in the family and work, providing value, sensation.

I mean, I feel how the lack of one drives me into another.

I’m aiming to balance between different areas of my life and I can feel how that overlaps. I’m so hungry for the intellectual and quality interaction so bad.

It is hard to imagine if I wouldn’t even work these days at all. Maybe that’s what I need to experience though.

I’ve never in life felt this driving alertness, intentional confidence, conscious presence, so resourceful. Mix this up with the excitement over the next two weeks, me mostly resting and slow living in the Vietnamese people with no deeper intellectual f2f interaction.

I feel like conquering the world.

I don’t understand when people think like ‘there’s nothing on earth to spend my time on, I’ll go watch some Netflix’.

Like seriously your life lacks hobbies, some inner interest this much? How? Why?

It’s frustrating to see how little people are self actualized

My problem with most men is that I’m more directed than they are.

Oh plus it’s easier to make more sats than having to waste mental capacity on saving a few.😈

I agree with that! Lower maintenance may be but also mainly how you feel around using that, you enjoy the thing, trust that if it’s functional etc.

I’d say it’s more important to be aware of what we surround with; and therefore buy, consume, etc :)

Chào buổi sáng Việt Nam 🇻🇳

Be safe

Chào buổi sáng / good morning!

I’m restoring myself with silence, low information intake and generation.

Today it improved, I was capable to share some shoe and bag photos to my mum, replied to one friend and one guy about collaboration (time sensitive). Also I made a happy bd post to our president.

I feel I am done for today :)

I feel some sort of nostalgic memory on the coming winter, it’s cold and I’m alone and I feel how the reality breaks my illusions.

The more I admit my potential to myself, the worse and the better. The worse when you feel, the better when you act.

Soon, I’ll meet some people who feel close despite in person we haven’t spent that much time together. That’s a gift.

Running around the lake, ‘oh European man’ I thought, he was walking. Our eyes met; he walked, and I thought, maybe I could say something.

But then I sabotaged the moment and just kept running. What another weirdo can travel to Dalat alone? And well, me, I am enough of a weirdo, what a man could bear it? I mean some could, a very few, those able to see and admit the whole true me, those few ones; maybe I sabotage that too by not even giving a chance to the many…

or maybe I don’t even care. Part of me feels the desire, the honest want for connection, genuinely being oneself, trusting to a man who deserves it (those few), yet maybe, maybe, not too quickly.

And the end of the day, it is those few who dare to speak themselves, as I don’t aim to lead. Yeah, I know I do set direction, an inspiration to some; but that’s not the dynamics I seek in the relationship.

So yeah. There are a few who dare, and then there are some who just sabotage themselves because of the low self esteem or something. And then there are those who don’t, but who never admit my potential and would tear me down over time. And then there are those who admit it but in sort of a sad way where I see their weakness, I see it just wouldn’t work over time, I wouldn’t grow, I would be silent about the growth as I would feel sort of ashamed for the speed of my life right next to someone who’s driving this life experience at a way slower pace, I don’t know which one of us could bear it. I don’t know what’s the worst case.

And then it feels to me I slowed down, I do without doing, I work a little but efficiently, I move fast without trying. I relax, finally, I feel how the tension is leaving my shoulders and I breathe, I became so uninterested to the many things except for the conscious experience, watching the cats play and just the leaves of the trees and talking to locals, integrating myself somehow. I want the real world connection so bad. But yet, my pace, my way of slowing down, is yet so fast to the way how the average lives.

And well no, I couldn’t go for the average, even slightly above because we don’t understand each other.

I don’t mind sabotaging meeting a stranger, but I can’t sabotage myself.

💎

👠💄🇻🇳🐈‍⬛

I have a little mental orgasm here in the small Vietnamese town with slower drivers who are not changing speed, are predictable, reliable and pretty responsible [just have nonexistent attention span], and beside the honking, it’s pretty silent and very green.

I relax! / my body feels tense from the travels and change though

Solution to overcome your ‘ending summer’ / ‘leaves falling’ problem is the one way flight ticket.

Chào buổi sáng Việt Nam 🇻🇳💄👠

Good morning, Vietnam 🐈‍⬛

Little pleasures thanks to my premium cards from SOLO :)

Maybe if I sat down and replied to all those messages I get (and not only to the very few people), I would get to know my future husband pretty quickly.