This is the type of shit you write and wonder.. should I? Should I say that outloud?
Fuck it. I came in my head and it was amazing.
Next time I do a meaningful amount of shrooms I should listen to erotic hypno again.
Last time was fucking amazing. I ended the trip suddenly with a mental orgasm. Holy shit! I couldn't believe what just happened.
Mental orgasms are less messy but a thousand time better.
Problem is, I always feel like im wasting my trip if im not doing it for spiritual reasons.
Using shrooms to observe consciousness, seek answers and experience getting close to death > using shrooms for a mental orgasm.
Using shrooms to understand that existence is heavy but ought to be weared and be weared proudly > using shrooms to cum in my head.
Decision... Decision
Sleep paralysis explained
#[0] getting emotional 🥹
Thinking that you can understand what reality is with science is like Thinking you can use a microscope to understand the lense of said microscope.
You can't look at something by using the thing you want to look at.
"In other words"
Who am I listening to right now?
Elobbrate?
Yeah but it's not random people. It's people i love and trust.
It's not a company either. It dosen't really matter if my brother wants à New 3d printing machine but dosen't want or isn't capable of making money down the line with it and contribute back in.
My only worries is that someone might ask for something, get rejected, and be hurt or get angry by it. Further creating distance in the family instead of closeness.
Create a family patrimony everyone is incentivized and can easily contribute to. (We can all see who has contributed to the family wealth)
Give the possibility to start a project without simply begging for it. (The money is yours to, you have a key)
Create an opportunity for us to meet and discuss and take décisions together.
Orange pill all of them along the way.
Protect myself from my own greed by sharing my wealth with people I trust and love.
I mean.. there's many reasons.
Dreamed that i met one of my old coworker.
- hey, are you the guy that got temporarily laid off and just never came back?
- yep
Bitcoin has barely moved in the past 2 days. Is this the thing that is supposed to shine during a bank crisis?
I'm done. I'm out.
Aight, back to sleep. That's how it goes.
Sleep > sleep paralyzis terror wake up > nostr > eat > sleep
Dream
Setup a multi sig wallet with many tap signer, give one to every member of the family, when someone has a project we assemble to talk and vote on it.
Will that get us closer or just creates more problems?
Nop, I only tried ledger and coldcard.
SS seems complicated for my small brain. I'll wait to see how you feel about it. I'll be on the look up from updates on your side.
I shouldn't. I feel like knowing more will just help me create these feeling or worse... attract these things 😨.
But I want to. I think I'll wait sun rise and look some shit up.