The first chat: super exciting
The second chat: not went that well
The third: he didn’t reply to me yet
And it turns out to be a long chat🥺 didn’t sleep well last night because can’t help to think of him🥺
Although just knew for two days I feel a weird familiar with him. Like having known him for a long time. And the time difference became unbearable. First time so clearly feel the time. 
And it turns out to be a long chat🥺 didn’t sleep well last night because can’t help to think of him🥺
Met a boy called David in hinge. Although I like his photo first, when he likes back without leaving a msg, I’m not sure what to say and just let go, but he text back tomorrow evening. I review his photos again and found I really like him. Not sure what’s wrong with me I just discuss with him about the folding clothes stuffs😫
And he didn’t reply after I text this morning. I’m really really regret. Feel like I’m dumped😫what the hell
It must be of hormones yes it must be.
On my period, très fatigué 😪
I guess I still care a lot to others’ thoughts: what would they think of me? Will they like me? If I’ve made something annoyed them?
But no, I should consider more about how I’m feeling, if I feel energetic if I really enjoy the time the person.
You are the one that matters.
You will never get ready
“I will go abroad once I …”
“I will start to date someone once I …”
…the list goes on
So I always live in the future always live in the if
That ain’t cool at all and you need to live in the moment, the future will come, or say you can get there.
Don’t worry that you can’t get anything done or you are not good at anything. Just fake it until you make it.
I guess before I’ve always had a fantasy about romantic love and have a stereotype that the dating market would somehow destroy this kind of fantasy. For it’s like an interview in job market, and the both sides show what they have what they could offer and if match the requirements of each other then it works.
But now I realize that all things in the world are just about exchange. Although in my deep mind I still a firm believer of love. But I could align them well. Just give it a try to see how things go.
The most embarrassing thing is to meet someone you know in a dating app🥹🥹quickly switch and pray him haven’t seen me
Although I know there could be plenty of opportunities in modern society only if you build, I’d you made yourself be seen. But for all these long time, my role in the internet, in the social media is alway a consumer. I just scroll down to consume the content but never put my own stuffs on it and I guess my ego makes me think that why should I post something why should I build my profile. But it ain’t right I realize now. If I want to be seen I need to expose myself I need to let others know who I am, what kind of person I am. You feel you are smart you are everything but it doesn’t help. Only if you make the right person know it.
The hard part of being an infj is that after a team building, you can’t help but keep savoring what others have said, mind-consuming process.
Stop overthinking stop drowning yourself🥺
If I’ve got choice next life, I would like to be a nature born beauty. Like that kind of beauty no matter who met couldn’t help to complement “you’re pretty”🥹🥹
Im starting to doubt that it’s not the thing(like earning more, living abroad, find “the one”) itself that half to finish or achieve. It’s because I haven’t thought through it. Although I said I wanted, I wished, but not specific enough, I still have no idea in fact.
Seeing a few ants in my renting house , that sad⚠️maybe because recently I’ve been eating in the house. Although I thought the sandwich and snacks and hold well in my hands.
Don’t underestimate the small creatures that could cause the great damage(or just trouble 👿