As I mentioned, I've known about Bitcoin since 2016, but I only have 42 satoshis. The reason? Because I've lost all my Bitcoin... In October 2016, I bought my first fraction of Bitcoin for $300 when BTC was around $600. I bought 0.5 BTC. It was a difficult time for me as my father had recently passed away, and life hasn't been as beautiful since then. But life goes on... I had an online wallet with my private key, but I didn't understand much about how the financial system worked. I came across faucets, "investment pyramids," and "get paid per click" schemes, and I lost almost half of those satoshis to "invest and invite new users" scams. Then came the exchanges, and I was able to sell a portion of my satoshis. I understood the technology well, but I didn't grasp the global financial system or the greed and malice that exist in this space. That's why when the price dropped from 20k to 3k in 2017, I stopped paying attention and focused on other matters.

In 2019, amidst the pandemic, my interest resurfaced as I began to understand more about financial systems and how Bitcoin was a disruptive tool within this system. However, I was in a poor financial situation at that time and couldn't afford to buy Bitcoin. So, I resorted back to the foolish faucets like Freebitcoin (which never allowed me to withdraw what I earned there). In 2020, I was able to reinvest from the little I earned (I live in Colombia, and the minimum wage was less than $300 USD per month). This allowed me to accumulate 0.05 BTC, and I was quite content, but I started getting involved with cryptocurrencies. It's worth clarifying that these 0.05 BTC were held in Binance, meaning they weren't my own keys, nor was it my BTC. I began investing in shitcoins, and I wasn't doing too badly. I never fell for scams; I was very selective. I preferred coins that had their own blockchain and native tokens, so I didn't lose due to scams but rather due to market fluctuations. However, this taught me about financial market analysis. I still didn't fully grasp how these wretched individuals manipulated the market, the countless ways they psychologically manipulate you. I fell for Dogecoin, Shiba, Ripple, and continued losing money. I was a person who, with less than $300 USD per month, would set aside between $50 and $100 from my salary to "lose" it in the rubbish these wretches invented to rob you...

That's how I spent all of 2021 and part of 2022 when I started experimenting with "perpetual futures contracts," and that was the final blow. I messed up with the Terra-Luna crash, the FTX crash (which didn't affect me as much as Luna's, I even bought the dip). In that process, I improved my trading skills a lot, although by that time, I had already lost $1000 USD. And then came 2023... Nowadays, I make around $800 USD, which is a modest income in Colombia, so I was able to "invest more." I managed to accumulate $3000 USD, but as I mentioned before, I was involved in trading perpetual futures contracts, and I wasn't doing bad, but arrogance is a cancer that destroys your ability to be critical. My arrogance, in particular, made me believe that my technique without a "stop loss" blinded me, to the point that I put almost all of my money as collateral for two simple positions... Well, when Gary Gensler started the war against crypto, on a Friday at 9 PM Colombian time (same as New York), I lost everything in 15 minutes, and this time, I felt the biggest disappointment with myself. How could I have been so stupid, naive, and arrogant? I still feel a lot of anger towards myself because I have debts due to an attempt at a face mask business in 2019, which failed, and I have a debt of around $8000 USD. I also feel the frustration of thinking that everything I've tried in life has been a failure, that my life has been a mess since my father died, and that no matter what I try, destiny treats me with contempt... I think emotionally I'm not well, and writing this is my way of releasing that frustration.

I want to learn as much as I can about Nostr because since 2021, I started studying programming. I learned about smart contracts, and I really like these things. I believe Nostr is revolutionary (unlike smart contracts, which are a means through which many wretched individuals steal and harm others). I hope to know enough to attempt something worthwhile. I am a fighter, and I have no other alternative. As long as I'm alive, I will continue fighting. However, my anger and frustration do not drive me to steal from others. I hate those wretched individuals who have become rich by scamming or defrauding others. That's why I want to do something that helps people cooperate instead of going around trampling others.

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