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I'm probably a bit too open at times..

I'm sure everyone deals with this kind of thing at one time or another, I'm just tired of it.

Love might be timeless, but there are other practicalities that place limits on things. For example, I've really screwed up. I want to have kids. But, I should have done that 20 years ago. Yes, yes, I still can sire children, but, that also places limits on the age of a woman I should be pursuing, and, at my age (which you'll probably laugh when I tell you), I'm well into the "yeah, that's gross" territory. And thinking about that makes me... Uncomfortable.

The one thing I've learned after I started writing last year and talking with another friend is that I treat myself like the villain of my own story. It's absolutely true that the worst parts of my life are my own fault, and I recognize that it's a very privileged position to be in, but, it also means that I don't treat myself very well. I've been struggling with that over a year now and I'm not making much progress.

I'm hesitant to give it my exact age, but I'm slightly over the answer to Life, The Universe, and Everything. If you know the reference, you'll get close enough to my age.

I really don't know if there's anyone that's even close enough to the weird matrix of my core values... Maybe close enough to smoke and nod when I'm getting exceptionally odd, but, I am not hopeful.

Duchess, you're very kind and caring. Thank you for being so lovely towards an odd stranger on the internet. I am half convinced your kindness is being wasted on me, but that might just be the self-doubt talking

Being open and honest is a strength, not a weakness. It’s true that everyone grapples with self-doubt and life’s challenges at different points. Your feelings of exhaustion from it are completely valid.

While love is indeed timeless, I can understand your concerns regarding practicalities. Life often doesn’t unfold in the linear manner we imagine, and it’s okay to feel regret about missed opportunities or choices. I can only imagine what I’ll feel in 40 years from now, but at the same time I feel all of my choices have built me into to who I am now and I am thankful for that, I’m glad I did not follow what everyone else did. When it comes to having children, I can understand your points about age, but I’ve seen men in their 60s have a child with a woman in her 40s and they were very happy together. It might not necessarily fit into the traditional mold, but that doesn’t make it any less meaningful.

It’s incredibly self-aware of you to recognize that you might be treating yourself as the ‘villain’ of your story. But maybe you should change the angle at which you see yourself? Everyone makes mistakes; they’re an inherent part of the human experience. Recognizing them is the first step (most people can’t do this), but it’s crucial not to let them define your self-worth. It’s a journey, and self-love is often the hardest love to cultivate. The mere fact that you’re actively reflecting on it speaks volumes about your resilience.

You should treat your self better, you deserve it, this is your life, your body, and your earthly experience. Maybe being here on Nostr will help you make this progress 💜

Regarding your age hint, “The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy” reference didn’t escape me! Douglas Adams gave us the magic number 42 as the answer, and if that’s close to your age, then rest assured, it’s a number with a lot of good vibes attached to it and I must add, that’s not old 😂. If you are indeed in your 40s then this is the prime age of a man! This is the age where men actually start to get their shit together!

Finding someone who aligns with your weird matrix of core values might seem like searching for a needle in a haystack, but the world is vast and filled with diverse souls. If I might ask, what are your weird matrix core values? Holding on to hope can be tough, but it’s worth it. Even if it feels like an uphill battle, life has a peculiar way of surprising us.

🥹🥰 Believe me, kindness is never wasted. It’s a gift to be able to connect with others, even if it’s just as “strangers on the internet.”

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