It’s been an emotional journey with myself to understand my gender. Growing up I was always told “man up” and was looked down on by my family for not adhering to typical masculine traits. Gender roles in my evangelical cultish household were rigid. Pants for boys, dresses for girls. Colors were also extremely gender coded with little flexibility. Clothing itself was a mechanism for control in my childhood, an authoritarian power struggle to mold their children after their image. I remember as a kid doing many femme things such as shaving my body, practicing tucking, doing a little makeup, and wanting to wear women’s clothes. I didn’t have the words at the time to describe what I was doing. I was extremely in denial with myself and this exploration was suppressed in favor of a hate filled resentment of the world and in particular, gay people.

Now out of that environment and now knowing better, I am constantly filled with a sense of longing. Longing I could go back and do things different. Even telling people I want to wear skirts or other femme things is unfortunately still hard. My masculinity is so engrained into me it’s hard to get outside of it. I still havnt told my partner… but it’s not because I don’t trust them. It’s just that getting the words out vocally is hard.

I don’t want to be in the closet anymore. I didn’t realize how happy I could feel from wearing femme clothes until I tried some on the other week. My heart feels like a kid again. #lgbt #nostrplebs

Great, glad I caught on 😂

DAE shake their phone when a zap takes a bit longer, like the sats are stuck in your phone or something?

I just caught myself doing that.

I think it turned out pretty good

Pairs. Ot parties. But party might be better idea

⚡⚡Challenge - Last man standing ⚡⚡

🏆 Winning price: 1 000 - 21 000 sats 🏆

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📖 Rules:

-For participation reply anything to this note.

-You can only comment once in a day.

-If game continues more than a day you can reply again, but do it under your first reply.

-Game ends when there is no new replys (following the rules) for 24h.

-Winner is who made last reply.

-Winning price increases by 1 000 sats per day at 9PM UTC after first new reply until 21 000.

Extra:

-No bots, no multiple profiles / empty / etc. You can be new but i will use my own ummm... Thinking 😂

-This is test, no idea how it will go so i keep my right to withdraw or distribute winning price how i want, but its for if this wont work at all.

-I might boost this one or two times so different timezones have their change.

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Have fun 🫂💜 I will continue at fiat mines.

#zap #nostrgame #challenge

starting day 7, i hope..

well, but i am not sure if I am still in the game 😬😄

Excited to be on Nostr and engage with the community. Many shared ideas!

How are people going to be verified? Is this a problem with #nostr?

Can I hit this guy, too stupid 🥊

Okey, shroom filled with beacon and covered with cheddar is nit looking rhat good but 🤷‍♂️😂

#foodstr #food #luch #foodpic

oh wow, do you have any leftovers? 🤣🤤😂

i love the efford you put in preparing something nice😍💜🧡

looks delicious 🤤🫂

Okey, shroom filled with beacon and covered with cheddar is nit looking rhat good but 🤷‍♂️😂

#foodstr #food #luch #foodpic

good morning ☕️⛓️👋💜

Thing i dont get... If peoples think that hot water and or alcohol is enought to clean their frying pan then why they are not enought for other dishes?

Yeah I’m thinking it may be much more challenging to build audio into the protocol