Ended up zapping nostr:npub12jedfuhk2wfr7syr38t2f55652khuyz9f88r63ftm0j2vudxq9sqq7677r twice because NWC crashed and my short term memory went durp. xD Oh well.
I try to not zap #egirls that often if at all. Not out of spite or anything; but because this kind of "give me money and leae" stuff just feels so... un-personal o.o I get this part of the industry, it is how it works. But I do like me a little more person-to-person.
Last time I had that was forever ago with Foxy Anya (hair- and nail-fetish content - im a hair guy, go figure XD) and it was mad fun. The rules of the live streaming site she used - I think it was Vicky Vette's cam-site-thing...? - stated that the model should never mention a viewers name, and we just outright proceeded to spend 10 minutes of her trying to pronounce my name and me ending up emailing her a voice clip mid-show. XD That was fun, personal interaction, whilst it was still very much an erotic stream. But this atmosphere was different and felt like it ment something. Not just a good wank, but also just having a great time on a personal, social level.
I haven't found this experience again in forever. On Twitter, I had a little sparkle of that with someone, but it was both short lived and very temporary when she lost her account and later interest in the scene and just cut ties with everyone. And then there was Rae Lil Black, japanese porngirl turning game streamer during COVID lockdowns. While her streams were ~300 people, it was genuely fun. But then she got into some thai esports team and the whole situation changed and VERY quickly devolved from "i am able to talk to you and play a game" to "give me money and twitch bits and buy my merch and maybe i look at your message eventually" - at which point I just left. Only thing I then noticed is that she once got on a just-chatting stream and cried a river and sought attention from her chat in the most attention-whore way possible. That was just insanely sad.
Fun fact, Rae lived in germany for a while. I could easily have met and helped her. But whatever x) I was there at the beginning, offered my help, was ignored and pushed aside and later just left with a shoulder shrug.
And that is why I try not to zap #egirls for their usual content, because while it gives me "value", it does not give me anything more than effectively a beautiful picture to look at for 30 seconds.
