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>so I am trying to shift my mindset away from her without making her feel uncomfortable.

I don't understand this part.

Because I love her, it's really not that hard to understand.

She will never love me, so I just want her to be happy. Putting my own feelings before hers will just make her uncomfortable.

It would be one thing if I had a chance, but that will never ever happen, I am too ugly and awkward.

All I can do is wish for her to have a husband that will make her as happy as she makes me every time I talk to her.

Honestly the thought of her with another man fills me with a blinding rage and makes me want to commit suicide by cop. The thought of another man touching her beautiful freckled skin drives me mad with rage.

But then I remember she isn't mine, she will never be mine, and that I just need to let go.

Guys like me don't get to be happy. We don't get to get the girl. The best guys like me can hope for is to just beat someone up so bad it ends up in the news and the jews remember my name as something to fear.

I'm not like you Aryan. Even if I could bang a dozen girls I wouldn't. All I want is one girl, the one who will be the mother of my children. I would suffer any pain to make her happy.

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Nips :nofatpeople: 2y ago

I mean the part when you said about shifting your mindset away from her making her uncomfortable...does she take comfort in your attention?

I think you can protect yourself a bit. You're allowed to do that, Bead. Her stance has made you uncomfortable to say the least. Worrying about her comfort now will only bring you pain. Have love for her, sure...from a distance, a friendly distance.

I don't think all is lost though. I'd say she may realize she made a hasty call in a snap knee jerk reaction to hearing your height.