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Because I love her, it's really not that hard to understand.

She will never love me, so I just want her to be happy. Putting my own feelings before hers will just make her uncomfortable.

It would be one thing if I had a chance, but that will never ever happen, I am too ugly and awkward.

All I can do is wish for her to have a husband that will make her as happy as she makes me every time I talk to her.

Honestly the thought of her with another man fills me with a blinding rage and makes me want to commit suicide by cop. The thought of another man touching her beautiful freckled skin drives me mad with rage.

But then I remember she isn't mine, she will never be mine, and that I just need to let go.

Guys like me don't get to be happy. We don't get to get the girl. The best guys like me can hope for is to just beat someone up so bad it ends up in the news and the jews remember my name as something to fear.

I'm not like you Aryan. Even if I could bang a dozen girls I wouldn't. All I want is one girl, the one who will be the mother of my children. I would suffer any pain to make her happy.

Nips :nofatpeople: 2y ago

I mean the part when you said about shifting your mindset away from her making her uncomfortable...does she take comfort in your attention?

I think you can protect yourself a bit. You're allowed to do that, Bead. Her stance has made you uncomfortable to say the least. Worrying about her comfort now will only bring you pain. Have love for her, sure...from a distance, a friendly distance.

I don't think all is lost though. I'd say she may realize she made a hasty call in a snap knee jerk reaction to hearing your height.

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b76aa76a... 2y ago

Aryan, "too tall" was her being polite and saying that instead of too ugly, which I am and what she really meant. She is a wonderful woman filed with life and dreams. Her rejecting me is natural, but she did it in a very gentle way, and I appreciate her sparing my feelings.

Also she made it very clear that she would never be interested in me. Nothing more I can do but walk away with my dignity intact and let her retain her pride.

Not everyone looks like you, Mr. Technoviking von FootLongDick. Most men in this world are ugly, and most of those that aren't are weak and stupid. For a guy like me that is ugly and stupid having a few weeks of my life where a woman actually pays attention to me is what keeps me going through decades of misery.

She was the first person to compliment me on anything since this millennia started and I will always hold her deep in my heart for that kindness.