I appreciate your kind words a lot β€οΈ. I am native german which basically results in mediocre english texts by default π π.
In my experience christs react very negatively to what I am gonna say now βΊοΈ: I am a spiritual human being but I dont believe in the bible/jesus as the answer to everything. I went to the church and do like lots of the bible texts, especially the ones about altruism (Jesus), but I learned that god is much much more than the bible, way more than what most christians are willing and ready to see.
That said I am very very thankful about you and your wife praying for me π€!