I was the youngest of the group and they were all like, 16-18, I was 12 and I didn't really feel romantic towards any of them, there was one situation where I said I had a crush on one of them but I didn't really, I just thought that having a crush is what normal people did and it was my way of fitting in in a way but nothing happened with that, the one I'm speaking to specifically I think of her like my internet mom in a way and one time she asked me to play a really cringey tumblr board game that she really liked and I was literally sweating at my desk because I reallllly did not want to play it but the idea of saying no to her was so scary, i said no and she was like like hehe okay and a shiver went down my entire body