Hey, Maybe you don't need to be analyzing every instance in your past that you think might mean something today. How about you look ahead instead? How about you do something different? Get involved with a charity in your town.. Volunteer. Become part of the community fabric. And exercise. Walk out the door, and don't stop for a half hour. Then turn around and go back home. When you finish exercising you get a feeling of accomplishment. That's what you need right now. Go for it!! Don't look back.