I am happy you are here. If you ever need to chat, I am around!!

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Understanding where you are helps forward movement even at times when you feel like you are going backwards. Eventually when you are in alignment, you will find the path that feels fitting for you. xo Keep us posted!

Hey, Maybe you don't need to be analyzing every instance in your past that you think might mean something today. How about you look ahead instead? How about you do something different? Get involved with a charity in your town.. Volunteer. Become part of the community fabric. And exercise. Walk out the door, and don't stop for a half hour. Then turn around and go back home. When you finish exercising you get a feeling of accomplishment. That's what you need right now. Go for it!! Don't look back.

I feel this very deeply and can relate so much. Our society is broken, our morals are broken, our values are broken. I bet almost every person that is alive can relate to this.

I’ve struggled with lots of addictions and habits.

I’ve turned to pray, and told myself I would never do this actions again, and I have done it again.

It’s a beautiful struggle, it’s alright to cry, to feel like you have fucked up and don’t know where when or how it’s going to get better.

I appreciate you reaching out, there’s lots of caring people in this community.

I’m not sure if I can do anything except to write something. Tell you you’re not crazy, and to keep trying and it’s alright to backslide as long as you keep failing forward.

Awesome!

And I appreciate you sharing your story.

The world needs more of this.

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okay... so I fucked up.

the patterns of "dopamine-craving" have grown stronger over the past week, and I've had more difficulty pushing back and/or sitting with those feelings without acting on them. I've been acting on them.

last night involved a lot of (social) alcohol. but the way my psyche relates to drinking, there's kind of no such thing as "social". maybe a taste or a single delicious drink on a special occasion. but no matter how many friends are taking shots, it's not a good fit for me.

tonight involved more alcohol, to start. it then moved to drug cravings, and I made a number of choices that I would not have made, were I sober tonight. some of these decisions are more reckless and damaging than others. I put my health, happiness, and relationship at risk when I do this.

these types of slips are often catalyzed by drinking, but I also notice that by the time I am in the mood to "drink to get fucked up", something is aready wrong inside me.

I want to not drink, so that I can steer clear of making second-order bad decisions. always chasing that dopamine rush, in its many forms.

but I also think that to truly heal and recover from these vices or addictions or weaknesses or whatever I call them, it needs to start with the underlying "source material".

the "why" along with the "what". im not sure though, and to be honest this path is new for me. usually I impose external limitations when I need to get myself in check. but that doesn't solve or heal those parts of me that actively want to use again tomorrow.

to anyone more experienced with recovery, from any sort of addiction or self-destructive patterns... im aal ears.

holding on, no matter how hard 🤍

#recovery

#addiction

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I advise clients to work on one thing at a time. It can be what you perceive as the most damaging behavior, but you can also choose the one that feels most manageable to tackle.

It may seem odd, but the order doesn't really matter. The skills you develop in one area will eventually help in others. What matters is that you pick one and stay on your own side as you move through those feelings/urges.

Good luck! it's definitely do-able. I probably said this above, but I wouldn't approach this as needing to resolve all past trauma to address the behaviors. That will feel impossible! You can be someone with a rich and messy past who has destructive habits and you can be someone with a rich and messy past who doesn't have destructive habits. It can be helpful to get therapy for trauma (that's not something I do) but addressing your behaviors doesn't depend on it.

Sounds harder than it is and heals deeper than you expect: Love & forgiving.

Had to deal with similar issues. In an environment where you feel loved it might be easier. Accept that it’s an issuer right now. When these past situations, where you couldn’t fight it, come up in your mind, forgive yourself. Forgive yourself. Forgive yourself. & Love yourself. And what helped me also was forming my dreams & create goals from them. When the dream is so big, you can’t but follow it. I hope you can free yourself from all physical addiction so at least this is gone and you can focus on your mind. Maybe go for the peaceful life 🤍

You’re not a failure, absolutely not! And therefore being ashamed in front of your partner makes it harder to heal. Instead of a failure, you’re a hurt soul, trying to heal. Allow yourself to heal. Building strength is not made from today to another, it takes time. Give yourself time. 🤍🙏🏼 you got this🫂🫂

“Come to me, all of you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, because I am lowly and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls."🫂

- Jesus (Matthew 11:2:8-29)

Grant yourself forgiveness, embrace self-love, and stay strong 🫂💚💪

🫂 Posting this is a great start, I’m shure… Thanks for sharing!

I don’t have any great advice for you, but I want the best for you and I sincerely hope you find a way through this. Talking about it out loud seems like an important step. There are a bunch of people who want the best for you and are rooting for you to slay your dragons.

I think you're going down the right path in relying on others and being gentle with yourself, keep going.

AA saved the life of someone very dear to me. Like many addicts they are addicted to multiple things not only substances... shopping, working. I went to Al-Anon meetings for friends/family/partners of addicts, they were useful for understanding & healing myself as much as helping to understand addiction.

Love.

Hard to put into words how much I appreciate and relate to this guidance 💜

For me, it’s not as much a dependence on a particular substance or behavior, but a predilection toward various ones. Learning about the internal states that cause me to reach for whatever that escape may be.

I’ve done some work in the past around sitting with myself in those uncomfortable moments, but I’m out of practice when it comes to interrupting the more compulsive responses.

Thank you so much for your support 💜