Thoughts of suicide occur frequently

I know I will not do jt

I know myself very well

I am unable to do it

This i know

I've felt like this for 12 years now

These feelings keep returning

But not so frequently to seek help

I've lost hope of ever not having to live alone

If I could flick my fingers for my life to stop, I'm fairly sure I would not hesitate

It woild save me from many more years of these feelings