I've been actively going out of my way to talk to people in part to find a gf and it's depressing. The demographics of every place I go to is very old and a good chunk of the young people, outside of higher class establishments you're expected to be paying at to even enter, are brown or ugly. I want to care. I don't want to give up. It just feels like the harder I try the more broken down, both morally and physically, I become.