Earlier nostr:nprofile1qqsgz4xf23072wqd7lpwhgwvuw7pnj0wt4mtvrnvfzjsajs0fthpfwqpzemhxue69uhhyetvv9ujuurjd9kkzmpwdejhgqg4waehxw309aex2mrp0yhxsctddejhgtnfdud9qz74 said this about me and nostr:nprofile1qqsqfjg4mth7uwp307nng3z2em3ep2pxnljczzezg8j7dhf58ha7ejgpr9mhxue69uhhxetwv35hgtnwdaekvmrpwfjjucm0d5q3vamnwvaz7tmjv4kxz7fwwpexjmtpdshxuet5mm8xr7 which I think is true, but maybe not 100% useful.

If you want to emulate a successful person you need to emulate them at the beginning of the journey not once they’ve already found success.

So in the spirit of helpfulness and transparency here’s a portrait of who i was ten years ago to the best of my recollection.

- I was working my ass off trying to build my company

- I was focused to the point of over obsession on obtaining wealth

- I was extreme in my worldview, thoughts and actions and I demanded that others get on board or get left behind.

- I was willing to go out on my own and risk failure/rejection/embarrassment etc…

- I didn’t have a plan B. It was kill or be killed.

- I was willing to (and did) destroy relationships in the pursuit of growth.

- I was cocky and arrogant (mainly as a defense mechanism).

- I constantly inhaled information. Books/podcasts/news/private conversations etc…

- constant focus on learning, getting better etc…

- I was ruthlessly self critical, I would ruminate on every mistake no matter how small for months.

- I took big risks

- I went all in

- I met as many new people as I could

- I did not agree to disagree, I was out to win. Every single interaction.

- I made enemies

- I was shamed/ridiculed for my extreme behaviors (riding a moped etc…)

- I lived well below my means

- I kept doubling down on myself

- I got rid of the people who weren’t interested in growth, I pulled along others against their will.

- I had a savior complex and thought it was my duty to save everyone I met.

- I had a misplaced sense of loyalty and was loyal to the wrong people at times.

- I made dumb mistakes

- I let ego get in my way

- I never quit

- I showed up everyday and worked/learned even when it didn’t seem like anything was happening

- I fought anyone who got in my way

- I had extremely long term goals and aspirations and was willing to sacrifice and endure pain in the short term in order to meet them.

- I relentlessly battled my own self doubt which was a constant

- went against the wishes of my father and extended family

- went against the desires of my fiance (now wife) who eventually came to see things my way

Basically I was a young man who was willing to tear himself and everyone else around him to pieces in order to win. I’m not saying this was a good thing. I’m just saying this is how I was then.